didn’t want to be with him.
Sarah was born out of the rape and was raised by a mother who lost her mind and a father who, out of guilt, hallucinated. The play continued on to describe Sarah’s views of her father, his suicide, and her own suicide caused by her incapability to connect with her past or her cultural roots. It is evident throughout the play that Sarah was ashamed of anything dark. Her mother was half black and her father full, but she only associated negative things with dark colors. Many times in the play, Sarah mentions that her father is dark. There is a sense of fear in how she speaks as well as a sense of shame. “…he is black, the blackest of them all. I hoped he was dead. Yet he still comes through the jungle to find me.”(3) She fears that he might find her and rape her like he did her mother. Sarah is not capable of embracing her black roots because the only person she knows that is black is her father, a terrible
person. Between each of her scene segments, there is a BLACKOUT. Since the play is remarkably like a dream, the blackouts symbolize the end of a thought. It is clear that Sarah is struggling mentally. Her mother was in an asylum, and her father was a suicidal rapist. It would be uncommon for Sarah not to have mental problems. She is represented by many different characters in the play: each a different one of her personalities. She created these personalities in order to feel like she belonged somewhere. She did not belong with the black community since her father was black, and she did not belong to the white community because she wass only one fourth white. Despite creating her alter egos, Sarah still did not belong. “I try to create a space for myselves in cities, New York, the Midwest, a southern town, but it becomes a lie.” (7) While the reader was able to see the torment in Sarah’s mind, it was almost a relief that she killed herself in the end. She had finally found where she belonged. She could not embrace herself. She saw herself as dirty, black. And her only option was to end her own life.