Didion is making reference to her knowing that her spouse was dead. I experience a situation similar when my dad died. I had to perform cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR). Didion tells a story about the evening her husband died. She fixed him two drinks and shortly after he doubled over the table before falling to the floor. First she thought that he was telling a joke, but then realized he was not. Next Didion attempted the Heimlich as she thought he choked on food. She dialed for help and told the dispatcher just come as they questioned her. When Didion arrived to the hospital she already had a feeling that her husband died by the way her living room looked as she described it an emergency room. When the social worker approached her she did not want to hear that her husband was dead so she did not allow them to tell her that, in her mind if they did not say it, the it was not real. She later realized that thoughts were her
Didion is making reference to her knowing that her spouse was dead. I experience a situation similar when my dad died. I had to perform cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR). Didion tells a story about the evening her husband died. She fixed him two drinks and shortly after he doubled over the table before falling to the floor. First she thought that he was telling a joke, but then realized he was not. Next Didion attempted the Heimlich as she thought he choked on food. She dialed for help and told the dispatcher just come as they questioned her. When Didion arrived to the hospital she already had a feeling that her husband died by the way her living room looked as she described it an emergency room. When the social worker approached her she did not want to hear that her husband was dead so she did not allow them to tell her that, in her mind if they did not say it, the it was not real. She later realized that thoughts were her