The death of Lavender has caused Lieutenant Cross to resent ever dreaming about Martha. For example, O’Brien notes that, “He felt shame. He hated himself. He had loved Martha more than his men, and as a consequence Lavender was now dead, and this was something he would have to carry like a stone in his stomach for the rest of the war” (1256). Because of his lack of attentiveness Lieutenant Cross has to carry Lavenders murder with him forever. Cross now realizes how much of a distraction Martha and her letters are, and how he is not a part of her world. He realizes he must rid himself of all distraction to prevent anything like Lavenders death from happening again. To rid himself of Martha, he decides to burn his pictures of her and her letters. O’Brien notes that, “On the morning after Ted Lavender died, First Lieutenant Jimmy Cross crouched at the bottom of his foxhole and burned Martha's letters. Then he burned the two photographs…He realized it was only a gesture…Besides, the letters were in his head” (1259). Lieutenant Cross has to rid himself of Martha so that he and his men can survive. Any distractions, even for a single moment in time can be harmful. Lieutenant cross now knows he was using Martha as a scape goat and it is now time for him to live in his reality and take his job
The death of Lavender has caused Lieutenant Cross to resent ever dreaming about Martha. For example, O’Brien notes that, “He felt shame. He hated himself. He had loved Martha more than his men, and as a consequence Lavender was now dead, and this was something he would have to carry like a stone in his stomach for the rest of the war” (1256). Because of his lack of attentiveness Lieutenant Cross has to carry Lavenders murder with him forever. Cross now realizes how much of a distraction Martha and her letters are, and how he is not a part of her world. He realizes he must rid himself of all distraction to prevent anything like Lavenders death from happening again. To rid himself of Martha, he decides to burn his pictures of her and her letters. O’Brien notes that, “On the morning after Ted Lavender died, First Lieutenant Jimmy Cross crouched at the bottom of his foxhole and burned Martha's letters. Then he burned the two photographs…He realized it was only a gesture…Besides, the letters were in his head” (1259). Lieutenant Cross has to rid himself of Martha so that he and his men can survive. Any distractions, even for a single moment in time can be harmful. Lieutenant cross now knows he was using Martha as a scape goat and it is now time for him to live in his reality and take his job