Why Is Ikaw Ano Ang Tama?

My mother had been my support since birth up to the present. She had been my role model through academics and socializing. Moreover, we can say that she had influence from who I am today. But, why? First, she is a single parent. She courageously took the responsibility of caring a child without any life partner. In addition, she had proven that it doesn't need always to be a work of 2 in raising a well-groomed kid. Second, I've never felt the lack of love, care, and guidance. Growing up, I faced problems and mishaps that throughout the years I solved or I still keep on facing. On the contrary, and perhaps more importantly, I've never felt on giving up. I've always received wisdom and supervision from my mother that helped in surviving and facing
There were four categories of parenting styles— Authoritarian, authoritative, neglectful, indulgent. Consequently, after the discussion, I've asses that my mother is exhibiting an authoritative style of parenting. My mother had always input that I should learn from experiences. I need to explore the world through my eyes and having her as the navigator or map. She always let assess every decision I made. Hence, she always asks the questions "ikaw ano sa tinging mo ang tama?" or "ano ang makukuha mo diyan, if sumama ka?” This had been part of my daily routine in every decision I made. Yes, she is open to hanging out with my friends. Yet, she imposes the 10 o’ clock rule. That wherever I go, I should always be at home at 10:00. More importantly, I proved the authoritative style of my mother through her used consequences over punishment. In her advice of "learning from experiences", I've always weighed the consequence of my action. That this consequences would greatly affect one or another aspect of my life. Not just about on going out or deciding what is right or wrong, but also the academically in which she use consequences to motivate to push me in greater
However, I have felt that void that my mother trying to hide. Albeit, all of her efforts I somehow felt it a little.
Everything affects everything. This might be the quote that would be relevant on multiple occasions, especially about myself. My present self-was greatly molded by the past experiences, as well as, my mother. Through my childhood, I sometimes felt I am left out. Left out from basic childhood experiencing (playing outside, running the around park, and much more) or a father and son relationship. Moreover, this feeling was more evident before I entered high school. These were the moments I asked if I do belong or am I normal kid.
Growing up I had felt that little space but I don't know what it is. Seeing my friends during family day complete, meanwhile, I often miss that event or go sometimes when my mother is free from work. In addition, having a single parent in a catholic school was a lot of work. Many events and gatherings were demanding the presence of both parents. Generally speaking, the catholic school environment were close to a single parent