They say size isn't important. But when does a girl become a woman? Is it when she is seventeen? Or when she has her first kiss? No, it is when she no longer looks like a girl. But that isn't all of it. A woman is woman-sized. She is also mature, responsible, motherly, caring, supportive, submissive, strong, reliable, successful, sensual, compassionate, kind, sensible and … that is a bit much when you are forty let alone fourteen. No wonder it takes time to grow into and come to terms with the shape that nature has given you It can be a problem discovering what sort of woman-sized woman to be. It is not just about being fat or thin. It is about being gay or straight, or a mother or a daughter, working, playing, anything that makes life what it is. It is about control of your impulses and destiny. Sometimes it seems impossible to control all this. Or if you do everything might go wrong. You might not fit anymore and everything will fall apart. One way of coping is to develop an eating disorder. The girl who starves herself to a low weight shows desperate determination. She knows exactly what she needs to be. Child-sized. But she can’t be eleven forever. Her body is growing. The world is moving on and expecting her to come with it. It becomes irresistible. Maybe she will eat, but she will vomit until she is happy to be woman-sized.
1. Anorexia and bulimia
This girl thinks Marilyn Monroe is great. She hates Kate Moss. She thinks Kate Moss is thinner than she is. The girl with anorexia is convinced that she is fat even though she is not. She is so fixed in this belief that it seems like she is being stubborn, or stupid. In fact she has her back to the wall. She has to be the thinnest person in the world. It’s the only way she can survive. She’s on a knife edge. Too fat and she has to face the world. Too thin and she dies. Being in the world is so awful she would rather die.
2. Anorexia and bulimia