In the middle of the night, I wake up frequently due to a reemerging night terror. I experience this nightmare an average of three times per week. I awaken startled, sweating profusely, and out of breath. It is a reoccurring nightmare of the evening that my college roommate was badly beaten by two people in our dorm room parking lot. The dream is always the same and very similar to the exact real life incident that I had experienced. I am watching television in the dorm living room area. Suddenly, I hear frantic yells coming from outside. Students screamed as they witnessed the attack in the parking lot outside the back entrance of the dorm. I rush outside and am shocked. I find my roommate …show more content…
I make excuses to avoid going out with friends. I have lost touch with a majority of my friends. I do not return phone calls or make an effort to engage in anyway. I have difficulties experiencing positive emotions and lack interest in activities I used to enjoy. Since I do not leave the house much, I do not have many opportunities to meet new people. However, I do not yearn to be around many people. I prefer to stay home alone or be around a limited number of people. I will not attend parties or put myself in a position where I cannot keep my eye on everyone in the room. I get anxious in crowds and will immediately remove myself from the …show more content…
She said the medication could be effective in addressing my symptoms of depression, anxiety, and insomnia. She has prescribed Zoloft and Paxil on numerous occasions, but I never fill the prescriptions. I feel that the medication will change me and I am afraid of not being aware of my surroundings. I must be on guard at all times and I do not want anything in the system that may alter my judgment. Also, because of my father’s alcohol dependency, I am also afraid of becoming addicted to anything. My therapist keeps trying to explain different options, but I repeatedly refuse