Bad Anxiety

Anxiety affects 40 million adults in the United States ages 18 and up which about 18% of the population. Growing up with bad Anxiety was not the easiest thing to handle. I use to be very self-abusive to the point I ended up finding out I had anxiety induced bulimia and little thing to some people might mean a bad episode for me like a test an addition or even reading in front of a class because I might mess up because of my dyslexia. But in my junior year of high school, I found a way to fight my sickness by leaving for the summer and marching the Oregon Crusaders where I traveled the country doing Color Guard. The song Fix you By Coldplay I believe explain what I went through in the way that no matter what happen in the past that you can find
It all started around late 7th early 8th grade I was getting bullied for my dyslexia in my critical thinking class by this one kid named Stephan it got to the point where I would not show up to that class because when I was there I would feel very uncomfortable where I was shaking and feeling sick and would have to go to the restroom because I would start crying after of few weeks of me not showing up the school called my parents to see why I had not been showing up because I was a good student who would get A’s and B’s. Since I would not tell them why I was skipping they took me to a therapist to try to get to the bottom of it but it did not really work. The only person I talk to for a while was my twin sister Rebekah and she try to help me. I work for a little but not for the long run. Coldplay states in the song fix you “Tears stream down your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes” well as i got into my 10th grade year that was when things started to get really bad i was getting into many panic attacks to the point of i would force myself to get sick and for a while i lied to my family friends even to my doctors i
Before that I had never really been out of the state beside when i was born and that year I went to Ohio For Winter Guard International so i got my plane ticket and the next week I was in Oregon with a group of 149 people I did not know. Yes i can say I was terrified then to find out I was on the field lining crew that night and that I would have to wake up early every day to paint a football field. I was having major doubts about going now. But i stuck with it i made a new family of people from all around the country and i learned a way to relieve my anxiety instead of making it into a negative i made it into a positive being able to travel and