Bad Catch Monologue

Bad Catch
By dominic clifford

I guess the day I died it was a sunny day, a day of joking around. We had been digging holes, walking and keeping guard: practically the daily routine. We had been just been mucking around before it happened as perusal. Rat Kiley and I had invented a macho game to play. We toss smoke grenades back and forth, like hot potato but with higher stakes.
Today the game goes wrong and a grenade explodes, thus killing me; his death, I guess this was an accident. Just few seconds ago i had been standing under a tree in the shade, and stepped out into the sunlight to catch the grenade. For a split second I thought I was killed by the sunlight, or was Tims O’Briens fault but It wasn’t. Seconds after the explosion I
was off the ground into the air, my limbs are being torned and blown apart. This is now, these are my final thoughts, the thoughts of a dead man.
All I can or want think about is my family, the girls or my my friends and sadly the horrifying pain which I know won't last for long. I guess it's weird how time slows down, we your about to do but decide to use it wisely cause I don’t have much left, Its all most like if time is frozen around me. I remember a memory when I had it all, but I guess you don’t appreciate something until gone. It was one cloudy afternoon, it feels like centuries ago… I was being clasic me, being a prick and being funny, Ive changed so much, it's like we are two different people that wouldn’t get on with each other if they met. But anyway me and my family went to a park where my brothers and sisters played as kids. We would play cowboys and Indians or Tag, i would do anything to turn time back, due to the fact I was happy and my limbs were still intact . But anyway, we were having having a BBQ on independence day with friends and family. I was 16 at the time and I had a crush on Bella parker. We had spent the entire day together, we had been firstling and teasing each other. I remember my brother kept teasing me about her, but it didn’t matter because i didn’t care what he or anyone thought because she was the only thing
that matted. By the time it was nightfall, we were sitting alone by the lake in the dark waiting for the fireworks. The night was cold so she got close and then eventually started hugging and soon after we started rolling around. That was the best night I had ever had. She was the first girl I had ever kissed, she was and always will be the dream, at the end of that summer I thought I didn’t need her… but as perusal I was wrong, even though I didn’t know but I had made the biggest mistake of my life which is including the recent events. I guess she was the reason why I was so afraid to die because I always wanted to make things up between me and her. She was the only girl I love and now the only. Back to the memory of that fantastic day, after we were done, we had to go back to our different cabins that we were staying at with our families, i spent the whole night thinking about her. Looking back my life i think that was the only point I was truly happy… sadly that moment was responsible for the worst day of my life, the day I joined the army.

I had spent the whole night in a cold sweat, my heart beat was up and I've been stressed vomiting. I felt the anger in my chest and in my veins, the one sole reason I had felt like this because being because Bella parker was pregnant. At this time it was 6 months after we broke up and she moved on to some city boy, to be honest, I didn’t know him but i still hated his guts. Sadly Bella parker her boyfriend had been in listed so a noble man he promised to marry her the day he came back. I found out about this through a letter I had received from Bella parker. With in this letter she had begged me to do whatever I could to protect him for not only for her but her baby. She was deeply in love with him, part of me wanted to feel happy but i wasn’t. So out of the stupid, patric, useless feelings I had for Bella parker I joined the army. Months of looking and searching for this man I stumbled over the corpse of Bella parker’s body. He was alone and half rotted, the only way I could Identify he was was his dog tag, I felt shocked and confused. I didn’t know what to feel or more importantly, tell Bella parker. I spent the whole night crying over a letter about a man who I didn’t know and hated. Part of me felt responsible for Bella parker loss, finding him was like finding a needle in a haystack, I did it, but by that time it was too late I not only failed him but more importantly Bella parker and soon to be their baby. But darn, I realised I couldn’t do it, maybe it would have been better for her to find out in person, I wasn’t happy at all. At that moment I made a promise that if I’d ever get back, I would support them in any way I could, I guess that can’t do that anymore…
At this point this my body has partially desecrated all over the tree behind me, The idea of death is terrifying, especially when you know it coming and less than a second away. The pain is unbelievable, at this moment I feel ready. I feel like if I close my eyes it will all go away, like a bad dream but I guess this time… I won't wake up. If this is my destiny, if this is what my life has lead up to, all the pain, the memory and loss has lead me up to this point, then I expect my fate… Good bye Bella Parker.

SPLASH

Statement of intention

The purpose I wrote this text because it was based on the prompt of the themes for writing an event from another perspective. The context is about Curt lemons death and what he could of been thinking about that. The audience is writing for teenagers and and adults to to the fact of possible similar events or tragedy. This piece was written in the form of Kurts Lemons death. The language used in this piece was used to show compassion and connection to kurt's lemons memory and life.