He talks a lot about waiting for death and wishing for it. He said “…dead soldiers were more shadowy yet sometimes more significant than the living. They were lonely, tranquil, and hopeful, like illusions.”(Nieh 90) Kien was jealous of the dead, for they did not need to continue to live with what they saw and were at peace. Kien would go on says that every soldier would hear this ghostly rhythm that the dead was creating from beyond the grave. Kien lost the ability to care for the soldier fighting alongside him. Can for example, pouring his heart out to Kien. Kien giving emotionless advice, but when Can tells him that he is going to leave to go home or die trying. He stated that he hates hearing about people personal problems, but he would try to convince Can to stay, but Can would say “I’ve killed so often it won’t mean a thing if I kill myself(Ninh 22). When ask about shame Can said “In all my time as soldier I’ve yet to see anything honorable”(Ninh 22). Can left, was found dead, and then the squad agreed to never talk about it again. Kien and O’Brien share these experiences of accepting the idea of death and thinking it meant
He talks a lot about waiting for death and wishing for it. He said “…dead soldiers were more shadowy yet sometimes more significant than the living. They were lonely, tranquil, and hopeful, like illusions.”(Nieh 90) Kien was jealous of the dead, for they did not need to continue to live with what they saw and were at peace. Kien would go on says that every soldier would hear this ghostly rhythm that the dead was creating from beyond the grave. Kien lost the ability to care for the soldier fighting alongside him. Can for example, pouring his heart out to Kien. Kien giving emotionless advice, but when Can tells him that he is going to leave to go home or die trying. He stated that he hates hearing about people personal problems, but he would try to convince Can to stay, but Can would say “I’ve killed so often it won’t mean a thing if I kill myself(Ninh 22). When ask about shame Can said “In all my time as soldier I’ve yet to see anything honorable”(Ninh 22). Can left, was found dead, and then the squad agreed to never talk about it again. Kien and O’Brien share these experiences of accepting the idea of death and thinking it meant