Even without saying anything, those men that I played with simply thought of me as being a stranger to them because I was treating them as such. My response to such reaction was to simply forget who my opponent is because I made my own choice to refuse to connect with him on a personal level.
There was one female chess parent who just said “okay” in response to seeing my deviant behavior at the chess club. At that moment, I could tell by that reaction that she was being neutral about my deviant behavior. My response to this reaction was that I thought that I had to deal with uncertainty as far as whether or not she acknowledged that I had my own reasons for doing so. I thought that her reaction was rather weak when she said “okay.” This ended up giving me the idea that I am receiving little or no support in my endeavor in promoting the game among women, even though I’m trying to pull my weight