I was almost 4 months pregnant with our second child and put on bedrest, the day of my checkup and ultrasound I began to have extreme pain. Before going to my appointment, I went to the bathroom and I heard a big gush, then the toilet began to fill with blood. I had a miscarriage, I did not deal with it very well and sometimes I still can’t, just writing about it makes me feel the sadness and guilt all over. Although I have been told countless times that these things happen and it was not my fault I still feel like there was something I did to cause this and it was my punishment for not taking care of the gift I was given. Somehow, I found the strength to take the sack that held my one and a half inch baby out of the toilet, I put the baby in a container and I buried it, which helped me gain some comfort. We followed the doctor's instructions on when we could try again, and it happened again. Although, this time it was earlier in the pregnancy, but it still hurts the same. Therefore, I began to think maybe he only destined me to have one child and chose to be strong for my …show more content…
Likewise, as explained in the textbook, Christianity holds a thorough theological rationalization of why God, who is still all good and powerful, would allow suffering and evil to occur in the world, which is otherwise known as a theodicy (Grand Canyon University, 2015, ch. 9 para. 29). Furthermore, there are also many versus throughout the scripture that could possibly justify such occurrences, such as form of punishment for our sins, strengthening of our character, keep us humble, or to designate us towards his direction (Lecture 6,