school when I looked at a boy who was capable of understanding the teacher’s content, when it sounded like nonsense to me, or at the prettiest girl in my class whose face I compared to my ordinary one, I was jealous. Sometimes, I vexed myself by feeling depressed, even guilty about my lack of intelligence and inferior looks as I laid down on my bed hundreds of nights, but I knew I could not have everything I wished for. However, after I graduated from that school and came to the USA to study, I realized a pretty face was only an addition to what a person already had. Of course everybody loves seeing beauty, but the most important aspect about a person is not his/her appearance, but his/her intrinsic values. When I first came to Tandem Friends School, I felt energy and confidence coming from everyone in this school where everyone showed their values through various interests and talents: some are adept in music, others are skilled in theater, etc. From them, I became brave enough to begin to learn golf, calligraphy, and to become involved in other activities. For the past eighteen years, I have striven for perfection to conteract in my inferiority and flaws, and to catch up with the people running ahead of me. No matter how much homework I had, I finishedit all; no matter how hard the middle school entrance exam was, I perservered and entered the gifted-education training class. Even the abstruse biology textbook and language barriers did not defeat me in my first year of studying in America: I typed all the terminologies into a dictionary and reviewed all the material taught in class after school and eventually earned eighth place in my grade. I deeply acknowledge that I’m not the smartest nor the prettiest, but the obsolete village of my birth has not stopped me from running; being a girl did not stop me from crossing the border and living without parents, and the intelligent boy I envied only has encouraged me to try harder.
Though suffering from my inferiority, I have discovered the strength to enter the world of engineering. Tools and machines will never disappoint—when one puts a quarter-inch wrench on a quarter—inch bolt, it works. I don’t have to be the smartest or the prettiest to gain other’s recognition, and I don’t need to please anyone in the engineering world. As long as I understand the mechanics, I can accomplish anything if I try hard enough - the efforts I put it will always become the outcome I wished
for.