I walk to the middle of the High Level Bridge. I am halved, standing in the space where red lights change to orange. They’ve begun to install suicide barriers, but only thin drapes of tarp clinging to a few tethered wires and some unfinished, ambiguous construction material linger on the walkway at this time of night. The river is about a hundred and fifty feet below. The only life on the water tonight is the trembling of downtown Edmonton’s muted reflection. Trusses dice the bridge into thin, industrial portions, still as stone, even when cars behind me shove the stale, cold air against my back as they speed past. In the centre of a bridge that connects a city in two parts, soaked in the light of sixty thousand LED bulbs, it’s impossible not to wonder whether all of the people who have stood here planning to jump felt some sense of absolution. It’s easy to pretend that there’s something more to this than standing on a bridge. The sky only looks as far away as the river below, like I could reach both if I tried. It’s nice to believe I could, even just for a moment. I cross to the end of the
I walk to the middle of the High Level Bridge. I am halved, standing in the space where red lights change to orange. They’ve begun to install suicide barriers, but only thin drapes of tarp clinging to a few tethered wires and some unfinished, ambiguous construction material linger on the walkway at this time of night. The river is about a hundred and fifty feet below. The only life on the water tonight is the trembling of downtown Edmonton’s muted reflection. Trusses dice the bridge into thin, industrial portions, still as stone, even when cars behind me shove the stale, cold air against my back as they speed past. In the centre of a bridge that connects a city in two parts, soaked in the light of sixty thousand LED bulbs, it’s impossible not to wonder whether all of the people who have stood here planning to jump felt some sense of absolution. It’s easy to pretend that there’s something more to this than standing on a bridge. The sky only looks as far away as the river below, like I could reach both if I tried. It’s nice to believe I could, even just for a moment. I cross to the end of the