Jeannette's Diary
ENTRY 1 After days of travelling, I have finally arrived at France. I have found France to be much more pleasant than Thornfield; here, I have no commitments and am free to do whatever I please. However, acting on impulse has always been one of my greatest flaws. Last night, when I attended ________’s dinner party, I came across a fair young lady, __________. I struck up a conversation with her and found her to be similar to other ladies. Upon first glance, she seemed to be charming and smart, but quickly revealed herself to be spoiled and desiring my wealth. However, lust came over me. I could not control such a sinister feeling. Even though I was repulsed by ______’s ignorance, I could not control the desire I felt for her. Thankfully,
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I dreamt of a world in which I was not married to Bertha, but instead, to a lovely, brilliant young lady who I loved dearly. Not only was she smart and kind, but she made me feel happy. In this world, I was happier than I had ever been before. I had forgotten about Bertha, it was as if she didn’t even exist. Instead, I was happily married and there were no empty gaps in my life--I had everything I could possibly need. When I woke up, I immediately was disappointed when I realized it was all a dream. But that world felt so real! I felt like something like that could actually happen in my lifetime. If that dream could come true, I would finally be able to experience what I have been lacking: a new beginning. I could start a new life and not have to worry about Bertha. Yes, I would be married to two women at the same time and be a sinner in God’s eyes, but I would be so much happier. I could lead the life I had always wanted.
ENTRY 6 I am writing this in my carriage on the way to Thornfield. I have decided, once and for all, to avoid all affairs. I will attempt to find a woman who can serve as my redemption. That woman will help me start a happy life. I believe that I will be able to find her eventually. However wrong it may be religiously, I will not let anything prevent me from finding my
I dreamt of a world in which I was not married to Bertha, but instead, to a lovely, brilliant young lady who I loved dearly. Not only was she smart and kind, but she made me feel happy. In this world, I was happier than I had ever been before. I had forgotten about Bertha, it was as if she didn’t even exist. Instead, I was happily married and there were no empty gaps in my life--I had everything I could possibly need. When I woke up, I immediately was disappointed when I realized it was all a dream. But that world felt so real! I felt like something like that could actually happen in my lifetime. If that dream could come true, I would finally be able to experience what I have been lacking: a new beginning. I could start a new life and not have to worry about Bertha. Yes, I would be married to two women at the same time and be a sinner in God’s eyes, but I would be so much happier. I could lead the life I had always wanted.
ENTRY 6 I am writing this in my carriage on the way to Thornfield. I have decided, once and for all, to avoid all affairs. I will attempt to find a woman who can serve as my redemption. That woman will help me start a happy life. I believe that I will be able to find her eventually. However wrong it may be religiously, I will not let anything prevent me from finding my