Lenny Diary

DIARY ENTRY
Lennie after Crushing Curleys Hand
October 9th 2012

I done a bad ting..... I really bad ting! Why’d I have to do it! I know George already told me it ain' my fault but why’d I have to do it! I disappointed 'im, I know I did! I don’t wan'a' make George sad. No never. George never makes me sad on purpose. Sometimes he tells me his life would have been better without me. He tells me he could have been goin' to cat houses every night but he tells me he doesn' mean it. He always says that in the end.

But luckily George told me it isn' my fault. He told me I did the right thing. I’m happy George told me I did the right thing. Now George is gonna let me tend the them rabbits. And I'm gonna be able to feed em' the alfalfa, to cut em grass, an' to give them water. But Curly ain’t as big as them rabbits. So what if George changes his mind. What if he tells me I hurt Curly and Curly ain’t as big as them rabbits.

Oh I didn’t meant it. I ain’t never want to hurt nobody but Curly was hurting me and George told me to. I remember! He said 'Get 'im Lennie. I said get him' and I was just doin' what George told me. George ain’t never gonna do me harm and George is the one who took me after aunt Clara died. George tells me what to do for everything and I remember what George tells me. Back then when I done a bad thing in Weed and we had to flee to 'ere, he told me to hide in the brush If i get into trouble. Yep that’s what 'e said, he said 'Hide til I come for you. Don’t let nobody see you. Hide in the brush by the river. Say that over'. He said if I get into trouble that’s what I do. And I've been repeatin' that for days now I have. Me and George do everything together we do because I'm there for him and hes there for me. In Weed, with that pretty girls dress, and her ratting out on me to the police, George never left me, George ran away with me. George ain’t never gonna do me no harm.

I didn’t mean to crush it I really didn’t! Curly was havin' a go at me and I didn’t know what to do. He started it! And I was telling George to make um stop. Then is when he told me to get him so I got him alright. I wouldn’t never of kept holdin' him if he wasn’t so fidgety. I couldn’t let go! And George was telling me to let go but I couldn’t. I kept hearing every bone crushing but I just couldn’t let go. I was panickin' just like in Weed. She was worse than Curly, with all her yellin'. She wouldn't stop. But Curly, he just kept movin' that little punk! So I had to keep holdin' on. I didn’t mean to crush him. He was flopping like a fishy. That’s what he was doing, he was flopping like a fishy. Whouu, I don t like fishy's. Their scaly and rough. They ain’t soft. I love soft things. Puppies I love pups. And slim, slim told me was gonna give me one of them pups. He promised me he did but now I ain’t sure if I'm gonna get no puppy. And I weally love puppies. They’re so soft. They’re really really soft. If I get one of them puppies its gonna be called George. If its a girly it'll be Georgina.

Rational
This diary entry, written from the point of view of Lennie Small is written in a child like way due to Lennie's child like mind and behavior. Lennie, although a big man, is timid and slightly reckless. Its a difficult match as many see him as this big man, when in the inside, hes just an innocent slightly clumsy boy. He is innocent, loving and trustworthy although at the same time he is also irresponsible, forgetful and doesn’t know how to keep in his anger. In this diary entry, I tried to incorporate Lennies childish like behavior, like when he mispronounces things, and when he gets distracted with one topic and moves to another quickly, with his forgetfulness, having to remind himself what George tells him. I also tried to show his trust when he repeats how George will never do him no harm and how he is there for George and George is there for him.