Making a decision with your mind or heart is a topic that everyone could discuss. it a topic that brings everyone to their feet. excites everyone and fills them with enthusiasm. and life is tough sometimes but you dont see it coming. Can everyone be candor with you ? did anyone ever have the audacity to tell you the whole truth.
I cant tell you that I love myself, but I dont hate myself, I have always thought of different ways to make myself better and prove to my parents, my family , and my friends that I am a reliable person and I can take care of all the responsibilities that i face. and all my life has been full of these questions, questions i cant find answers to. questions that will keep me up all night, and take away my sleep.Take away my most precious possession. Keep me from the only thing that helps me go through my day. Take away the only possession that is mine and mine only.
Throughout my life, I have found that I am unable to prove to people how much they mean to me. For example my dearest friend zain has always been disappointed by my actions and thinks that i dont value her friendship and i do not prioritize her. but the thing she fails to realize, and i failed to make her realize is that being late and moving fast is not in my favor.
What I have always questioned is that am i the one that is lacking this trait ? is it my fault that i cannot see or realize these things ? or am i the one that is going to loose all of the people around her that way. My problem is not this. My issue is much bigger . what i wonder the most about is does she really not see how important she is to me? or is it true that is wont make a difference what she does?.
The issue that i am handling, the issue that i am approaching is much bigger than that . My big question is “ how can i prove that to her ? “ and then i question what she thinks right now. what does she wonder when i say all of this. then i think that all i saying right now is nonsense. but