Monologue About Being In High School

I remember being in high school. Laying in bed every single night, until I'd fall asleep: praying. I was never really that religious but, there was something that I wanted so desperately… a boy. Just one boy, to prove me wrong; to take away all the confusion and the fear. One boy that I could fall in love with and be able to tell myself, ”I'm not gay after-all.” I know you understand, you're the one living it. This is version number 3456 of this letter. There's so much I know that you need to hear, but you and I both know the truth and even though only one of us has ever said it out loud, I know it’s the only thing you're ever really thinking about. It's the reason you feel sick before basketball practice; why you can't focus in school; and why you
sit in your car as long as you can, before coming inside every night. It’s the reason you can't fall asleep; and the reason sometimes you'd rather not wake up. You had this whole idea of what your life was going to be, so did your parents. I mean, everyone things they know who you are, and you're so scared that you're going to disappointment them. That you're going to lose them. You're going to realize that it feels so much better to have one person really know you, and love you; then to have a hundred people love you, and never really know you. I know it's scary to feel so out of control of a huge part of your life; I know that the world feels so big, and you feel completely alone.
I know you’d give absolutely anything to change this; I know you're hurting. All I want to do is reach through and give you a hug and let you know that everything is going to be okey. But listen to me when I say: the struggle you're going through right now is going to make you who you are; it's going to make you so strong; it's going to make you so proud. They say sadness is just the absence of happiness, the more you hurt only means the stronger you’ve ever felt love… consider yourself lucky! One day soon all of the anxiety and the sleepless nights, are going to make the sound sleep you'll have more beautiful then some people could ever understand. You're going to appreciate every, little, thing. There is one thing I believe in this world more than anything: everyone deserves to fall in love. You deserve to fall in love. And not to ruin the surprise but, you're going to. You're going to get to fall in love with a girl and it's going to feel like your heart is on fire. Listen, you're just going to have to trust me on that because there is really no words to describe
it. I'm going to tell you secret, of course you'll figure this out on your own but… one day you're going to go into the abyss and you're going to set up a little camp with a tall white flag surrendering yourself to who you really are; and one day other people in that abyss, just like you, they're going to see that flag and you're going to help them surrender themselves who they truly are. And even though I know it’s sucks not having a flag to guide you, your flag is going to guide others and you'll never feel more proud of anything. Turns out you're not so different, and you're definitely not alone. I know you don't feel this way right now but… I love you!