Narrative: I Was An Immigrant
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`Good morning,good morning! It’s new day,a fresh start,maybe it’s the luckiest day of your life ! Rise and ..” my radio tried to wake me up with such a motivational morning speech,that i had to turn it off .
’Cool,another day,another pain in my ass. .Ugh.’ i said turning on my back,staring at the ceiling.
I got off my bed,after rubbing my eyes and yawning for like 5 times. I hate morings,i’m not a morning person and you definetly don’t wanna piss me off when i just woke up. I took a quick look in the mirror and i was,like always,looking terrible. My blonde hair looked like some squirrels played with it all night long,my …show more content…
right cheek was red because of the teddy bear that was pressed on my face-i’m used to press my pillow or my teddy bear on my face at night..it’s just a bad habit,but that’s the only way i can make myself fall asleep- and my eyes refused to open enogh for me to see properly.
I brushed my hair,then my teeth,i took a shower and after that i got dressed. It was time for breakfast,or at least i thought it was. I was already late for school,so i grabed a cereal bar and threw it in my bag. My mom was like always not home at this time,she’ll eventualy come home tonight or tomorrow..
I heard a horn outside my house and i knew i was late,again,like always.. Mia and Kyle were waiting for me,they were angry at me and i knew it.
„Why are you always late?” Kyle asked me and i felt judged by his tone.
„Sorry,sorry,sorry! You know i’m not a morning person..” i tried to escape from the situation i got into by myself .
„Fine,you’re forgiven. Get in the car.” Mia orederd me laughing.
I closed the door behind me and i gave them a look ,plus an innocent smile to redeem my ’sins’ .They laughed and started asking me about our math homework. Really,math? They know i suck at math and that i didn’t give a damn about that homework. I knew enough math just to avoid failing the semester.
My phone buzzed in my pocket,so i took it out to check . It was a text from my mom..
„I’m coming home tomorrow. Take care.”
Of course she wasn’t coming home tonight. Why would she? Ugh,i just hate everything..
„Okay. You too” i replied,frowning at my phone’s screen.
„Everything okay?” Mia asked me with a worried look on her face.
„Yeah,just a mail.” I lied,smiling.
She nooded her head and turned back in her seat,looking at the road.
In 10 minutes we arrived in highschool’s parking lot. Yay. I missed cursing these morons from here.. I saw the guys from the football team surrounded by a bunch of silly girls that will eventually end in their beds,but hey! I don’t care.
I grabed my bag and got off the car. I hugged my friends and rushed to my English class,because i wanted to have a good seat. Christian Rogers wasn’t on my ’favourite people’ list. Jerk,football player and stupid. I’ve seen rocks smarter than him.. And that’s because i don’t really like to be around him,so i don’t really know how well he’s doing in school. Again,why would i care?
I know i’m using ``again`` too many times,but i have my own reasons for that..
Anyway,i entererd the class,but i was late. Mrs. Carlson was already starting a new lesson..
’’Miss Walker. How come that you’re always late?”she asked me coldly.
’’Please excuse me,Mrs. Carlson. Can i go to my seat,now?”
”Because you’re late,your seat is taken. Please,stay there,next to mister Rogers.”
No. No no no. Okay,i was expecting this.. I hate being right! I mean,right now i hate myself for thinking about getting the `chance` to stay next to that jerk. Arghh. I was mentally slapping myself..really hard.
``You’re dying of excitement on the inside,Walker.” He said,growing a big grin on his face.
``Yeah,you got me. Yeppy.” I said sarcastically,taking my seat.
``Shhh!`` i heard the teacher.
Today’s lesson was about Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet . Tragic love stories.. My day can’t get worse. I don’t belive in things like soul mates,love at first sight or true love. Everything is just an ilusion of our stupid heart taking control over our brains.That’s all! Everybody here is a hopeless romantic..and why? They aspire to things that won’t ever happen,they are just fooling themselves. Their eyes are tehnically open,but the truth is..they’re living their lives like it’s just a dream and they’re sleeping. Unrealistic people,ugh.
And of course,today’s lesson wasn’t my exact problem..Christian stared at me the whole class. He thought,maybe,if he’s gonna stare at me with his puppy brown eyes,i’m gonna fall into his bed. Yeah,sure!Like this is gonna happen.
My thoughts were interrupted by a tap on my shoulder. It was Rogers,giving me a little piece of paper with something wrote on it.
``you free tonight?xxx``
You’ve got to be kidding me.. I rolled my eyes and threw away that piece of paper. He looked at me confused. Yeah,i refused his offer to give me `the best night of my life`,as he called it after the class was dismissed.
``You can’t refuse me.`` he blocked my locker.
``Move.`` i said coldly.
``Nobody refuses me!`` he almost yelled at me.
``Oh,look. I did.`` i said calmly,smiling at him.``Now move .``
He finally understood what i said and moved his ass away from my locker. Everybody was looking at me with their eyes widened. ``She refused him?!`` i heard a girl behind me. ``She’s such a fool,God damn it.`` i heard another one.
``What’s going on?`` Kyle asked me,appearing from nowhere.``Why is everybody looking at you like that and what was Rogers doing here?``
``He thought i’m one of those silly girls that can be fooled so easily” i told him while i got the books i needed for my math class. I was lucky enough to be in the same class with Kyle,so we sat next to each other.
``You beast. You refused him,right?``
``No,i’m meeting him tonight at 7.``
``You kidding?!`` he asked me shocked,almost yelling.
``Do you really think i’m that stupid?`` i laughed when i asked him that.
``You scared me! Now let’s go,i don’t wanna stay in the front ones..`` he put his hand over my shoulders and started walking towards class.
``Walker!``
My day couldn’t get worse..Yeah,i have to stop thinkin’ like that.. I heard Moira calling my name behind me. Popular girl,stupid as a fish,looks like a barbie doll..From all i said ,you can understand that my biggest dream is to punch her in the face.. What on Earth she wants to tell me?!
Ch. 2
I rolled my eyes,obviously annoyed. I turned around to face her and that’s when i saw her red face. She was angry..But why? And why was i involved in this?
``What happend,Barbie?`` i asked her amused.
``What’s this?`` she yelled at me,then she gave me a little piece of paper. It was the one from Christian. How the f.. ``It was ment for you! I saw that! I saw you two in class!``
``Whoa whoa,love. I have no intentions in letting your boyfriend screw me,okay? If i could,i’d shave his eyebrows.``
``You freak! Just stay away from him!`` she told me with her angry-kitten look,then she turned around and walked away.
``Belive me,i try..`` i said that just for myself..
We headed to our class,sat in the back and tried to make the time to pass faster. Math class is a torture for me and Kyle. We understand nothing,the teacher sucks,it’s a horrible subject in school and i think it should be prohibited by law! The teacher understood long ago that we’re hopeless,so he decided to leave us alone –thank God- . I coverd my face with my palms and i waited for that damn bell to ring. Kyle poked my sholder and then gave me a piece of paper. Oh,please,not you too..
``what’s wrong?`` I shook my head and gave him a smile.
``nothing`` i lied again. Why do i have to start this week like this : I lie,i’m mad and i’m possibly hurting my friends..
``don’t lie. I know you too well``
``i’m okay.it’s just my mom,you know..``
He looked at me worried,and offered me his hand. I took it and he squeezed it.
``I’m here for you,okay?`` he whisperd.
I gave him a ’thank you’ smile,then i turned around to see what’s happening around us. Nobody was paying attention,just two girls in the front seats. They were the pure definition of ’nerds’ . I was doing pretty well in school,but i wasn’t that passionated like them.
Okay,so another day passed by and now i’m on my way home. Mia and Kyle stayed for some extra classes and i had to go home all by myself. It’s okay,i got my iPod with me ,so i’m gonna make everything around me look like a music video.At this point,i’m not so original i can say..
I felt my phone buzzing in my pocket,so i checked what was going on. It was a text from an unknown number.Yay,another freak making some ’funny’ jokes.
’Try to smile more often. You’re
beautiful.’
Secret lover or stalker? Because i’m not an optimistic person,i think it’s the second one. I looked around to see if there was someone that could’ve sent me that message,but i was alone .Okay,an old lady with her dog doesn’t really count as somebody that could send me texts,right?
In 5 minutes i was home. When i opend the front door,i smelled something.. Steak? I don’t think that my mom arrived earlier and decided to make dinner..
It was grandma. She does that very often..When my mother’s not home,she’s coming over to cook something and to stay with me for awhile.
’Grandma! Thank you..i’m starving!’ i said,then i ran to hug her.
’I thought so,darling.How was your day?’
’Pretty boring,like always.Yours?’
We continued to talk,had dinner and then went in the living room to watch TV . I told her about Christian’s intention,Moira’s jealousy attack and mom’s text. Soon after she gave me some pieces of advice,she had to leave. I went in my room,opened my laptop and checked my mail. Facebook,Twitter,Tumblr..Unknown user.. wait what? Another one? Or it’s the same person?
’I wish you could know how i really am. You’d be surprised.’
Okay,someone’s making fun of me and it’s getting on my nerves.
’Are you having fun?’ i typed in the answer box.
’What do you mean?’
’You’re the one who sent me that text earlier,aren’t you?’
’Yes. But what do you mean?’
’You’re obviously making fun of me.Please,stop. I’m not in the mood of insulting you.’
’I’m not,okay? Why is it so hard to belive that someone actually likes you?’
’What ? Everyone sees me as a freak. Stop it..It’s not funny.’
’I’m not making fun of you,okay? You’re not a freak. You’re just different than the others. That’s why i like you..’
’Are you even in the same school as me?Why don’t you come and tell me these things face to face?’
’Yes ,i am and no,i can’t.’
’Then why do you tell me all these things?’
’I just wanted you to know.’
’It’s actually nothing. It’s nothing for me. You’re an anon. ,you tell me this and what do you expect?’
’I expect you to understand that someone,besides your friends,cares about you. I have to go.. Message me here if you need anything’
’For God’s sake! I don’t know who you are! How the actual fuck can i tell you if i need something?I don’t know you!’
I was pissed off. An anon,which i obviously don’t know,decided to tell me that he likes me. I’m gonna throw a party with the theme ’’stupidity’’. Okay,i can’t say that it’s not sweet,but it’s irrelevant and i’m pretty sure someone’s really making fun of me.
I made my bed,got under the sheets and put my headphones on. I decided to fall asleep and forget everything about this weird day ..but all of the sudden,my phone buzzed.
’’Come on!’’ i yelled at my phone screen.
Unknown number :
’Good night. You’ll find out who i am in no time. Please,just be patient and give me time.’
’’Awesomee!’’ i said out loud,then i lied on my back . ’’This week is gonna be something..’’
Ch. 3
The next day,i woke up feeling different in every kind of way. For the first time in the last 7 years,i felt..alive and happy. I was actually dying of excitement to go to school and scan the areas for that one guy that told me he likes me. Even if i know it can be a huge joke,i was still happy that someone,even if that someone is joking,told me that i’m beautiful and not a freak. Well,besides my friends. They love me the way i am,they call me weird,but they love me. How could they not? I’m fabulous..not.
At school,the atmosphere was really.. i mean,it felt different. Maybe because of my mood,or maybe because something happend and Kyle,Mia and me were the last ones to find out what. Everyone was talking about a break up,but we couldn’t understand who broke up with who and why. Yeah,we were acting like we don’t care,but we were humans,so we were curious. I stopped a random girl passing by and i asked her :
„Do you know what’s happening here?”
„You don’t know? How could you not know? Christopher broke up with Moira. She’s devastated..” she answerd,leaving me a bittersweet sensation.
„Oh,i bet she is..” i said sarcastically.
So,it seems like there are problems in paradise.I chuckled just thinking of Moira’s face when Christian told her it was over. She was glued to him..literally. I knew it’ll get at this point at a certain time,but i didn’t know exactly when. He was obviously bored of her,he was hooking up with different ’blonde at soul and brain’ girls ,every night was spent with another girl. Never the same,new girls,sometimes fresh men..That boy doesn’t have a piece of dignity!He desgusts me with every step he takes..i mean,he’s a good lookin’ guy,looks like a God who decided to take a walk through the mortals: everybody wants him,you can have him ,but only for one night. Moira was lucky enough to stay with him for like..5 months? Yeah,they’ve been through a lot of fights and i really don’t know how Christian stayed with her for such a long time. Now that he broke up with he,i bet she’s really devastated,but not because she loved him or something. Her popularity level must’ve gone down-down. Christian remains with her player-jerk-king of everything attitude and Moira..well,she remains with her heart ’broken’,low level of popularity and her gymnastics team. No,not cheerleading,in case you thought she was a cheerleader. Rogers dealed with the cheerleaders in the first two weeks of the semester.
Leaving all this teen drama behind,Mia and i were late for History and Kyle was late for P.E. I bet the couch is gonna punish him with 30 pushups,like always. To be honest,the couch is not that evil.. With all these pushups,punishments and other stuff that he’s doing in P.E.,Kyle was becoming damn hot. He did a good job,so now we’re trying to make him be late for the class just to get some punishments. Hey,he has to stay fit!
Trying to pay attention to how bad was the communism ,my phone buzzed. My heart started to beat faster and faster,but i tried to stay cool. Text message from unknown number :
``Wow,so you really don’t care that someone likes you?I thought you’d be more enthusiastic.``
``So,it is a joke. ``
``No.`` he replied faster than i thought.
``Look,i’ll text you the break,i’m in the History class.``
``I know. Talk to you later.`` What?!He knows i have History right now? I looked around me to see if someone’s using his phone,but everybody was paying attention. Well,not everybody.. Mr. Lester caught me texting with that annoying guy who keeps making fun of me,took my phone and gave me 2 hours of detention. Yay...
``But Mr. Lester! I can’t stay in detention!``
``I bet you can. It’s your fault that you’ve been caught using your phone in my class.``
``But it was an emergency!``
``Really? And can you explain to me what’s that emergency?``
``Well,ehm..my dog is sick.My mom texted me to tell me that,that Sparky had to stay at the vet over night.``
``I’m gonna write this one down. It’s the best till now,miss Walker. See you in the detention class.``
``Ugh. But it’s not fair!``
Great,now i have to stay two more hours in school . Just..awesome.If i’m gonna find out who that guy is,but i’m not going to,i’ll make him pay for this.
After the class,Mia,Kyle and i had a `meeting`. I found out that Kyle also got 2 hours of detention because he refused to do his punishment at P.E. and yelled at his teacher. Watch out,we’ve got a badass over here! Mia called us criminals,we called ourselves badasses. There’s a special relationship between us three..nobody can understand it,besides us,of course.
Time passed,Mia went home and we went to..the detention class. In there we saw really badasses..i mean,we were as innocent as a little baby. They’ve been caught stealing,smokin’ weird plants,they had violent fights with other guys..and there were we: I texted during tha class and he yelled at a teacher. Really proud of ourselves..
``Ms. Walker,Mr. Morrison,take a seat please. `` Mr. Lester told us after we closed the door behind us.
``Great!`` i whispered,searching for Kyles hand after me. I don’t wanna stay next to one of those freaks. It’s creppy like hell in here!
``I’m here,don’t worry.`` he took my hand and then a big grin grew on his face.
His smile always gave me shivers. He’s that kind of guy that can make you smile even if you cried for 3 days in a row. His brown eyes can calm you down,his smile makes you blush and when he hugs you,you feel safe. His blonde ,messy,obviously sexy hair looks incredible everytime you look at him. God damn it,he’s handsome. That kind of handsome that you don’t wanna lose. I liked him from the moment we first talked,and i started to get more and more involved in our friendship,so i decided to give up on my feelings for him,but i can’t get him out of my mind: his smile,his voice,his damn accent,his everything. I just can’t.
During the detention,he played with my hair. He tried to braid ,and i want to make sure to put the right accent on TRIED. I giggled everytime i felt him touching accidentally my neck,but he seemed to understand what’s going on and stoped. Too bad,i didn’t want him to stop.. I always loved when he took my hand or when i was buriend in his chest into those big,warm hugs..or when he looked straight into my eyes and smiled.Damn it,i knew i was crazy about all these things,but i’m risking our friendship if i don’t stop acting like i’m in love with him.Wait..i never thought of that..
I’m..in love with him? No,no. I can’t be,he’s my bestfriend!I can’t do this..
After two hours,we finally got out of that `jail`. It is horrible! I’m never gonna use my phone in class again! That’s a freakin’ promise! It was creepy,all those freaks were lookin’ at us like they wanted to eat us alive. I’m gonna put some money aside and buy a bodyguard .
``Hey,i need to tell you something..`` my thoughts were interrupted by Kyle.
``Of course,what happened?``
Ch. 4
Cool.Now what?
``I wanted to tell you that i like someone..``he said,scratching the back of his head.
``Oh,i think i know who you’re talkin’ about.``
``You do?`` he asked me ,with his eyes widened.
``Mia!You like Mia!`` i said smiling and jumping around him like a little girl.
``No,i don’t like Mia,Charl!``
``I’m so happy fo-...wait,what?You don’t?``
``No. I like someone else..it’s a girl i’ve always liked.``
``Aw!Tell me about her.``
Outside i was milk and honey,but inside i was torn apart.Kyle liked a girl..Wait,why am i acting like this?He’s my bestfriend.I’m not supposed to care about his love life..I’m not allowed.
``She’s like a girl with two lives,two sides of her beauty.One is dark,shadowed by the past that stil hurts ,and not everybody knows this part..and there’s the one always shining,spreading love and happiness with every smile she wears. I..loved her since we first met,but i was afraid that i’ll lose her if i tell her. Now,i think that there are more chances to lose her if i don’t..”his happy face turned into a serious one,looking at me with his deep brown eyes that i’ve always loved.
I didn’t realise that he grabed my hand earlier and pulled me closer.
What if he was the one who sent me those texts?That explains how he knew when i’m having History.He likes me,but why did he sent me those texts first?Why not face to face? Maybe for him it’s a game,because he doesn’t know that i have feelings for him. It’s hurting so much..my bestfriend made fun of me..
``You!You were the guy who messaged me!You could’ve told me face to face,Kyle!``
``What are you talking about?What messages?``he asked me..confused.
``Don’t play dumb!You made fun of me!Now and then!How could you?`` i needed to end this because i felt my voice cracking any minute from now. I turned around,holding my tears and walked away.
``Charlotte!`` he sounded broken.
``Just drop it!`` i yelled ,not lookin’ back.
I was dumb and i knew it. I shouldn’t have done that.But i can’t go back now..my heart broke into pieces. From that happy girl that i was 10 minutes ago,i turned into a walking dead.
I rushed home just to find my mom with an extreme hangover,in the kitchen drinkin’ some coffee.
``Where have you been?``she asked me puting her cup down on the table.
``I should be the one asking that.``
``The principal called me earlier and he told me that you got two hours of detention.``
``How come that when the principal calls,you always answer,but when i’m calling,your phone is always off?!`` i tried to remain calm,but i couldn’t handle it anymore.
``I don’t have to explain myself in front of you!``
``Then i don’t have to explain myself ,neither!``
``Don’t talk to me like that!I’m your mother!``
``And i’m your daughter,for God’s sake!``
``What happend to you?``
``You!You happend !I’m like this because of you!Why can’t you be like the other mothers?I understand that it’s because dad left you,but belive me,i’m sick of this!You tried for two times to become better,to get close to me,but now?Now what? You should’ve left me with grandma the first time you left!Why did you come back?Do you have fun making me suffer?``
``What did you just say?``
``Nothing. I’m coming home on Friday. Maybe until then you’re gonna be sober and with your mind clearer than now.`` i said wiping my tears,getting my bag and leaving the house.
I heard her yelling after me to come back,but i’m not going to.Not until i’m calm. I had enough problems today and i don’t wanna turn into one of those drama queens. I have to let it out now,just to avoid doing it later and in the wrong place,in front of someone that i don’t want to.
``I’m coming!`` i heard Mia right behind the door.``Charl..what happend?`` she said looking at me terrified. ``Come inside!It’s freakin’ cold outside!``
I got inside,just staring at her. I don’t wanna know how exactly i was lookin’,but i bet i was looking..dead. My eyes were red,my skin was pale and my lips were dry,i was breathing heavily and i was freezing.
``Can i stay over toinght,please?`` i asked her,wiping my tears once more.
``Of course!How can you ask me?Of course you can stay..just calm down and tell me what happend..``
``Well,first Kyle..and then my mom.``
``The fights with your mom..i know.But what’s with Kyle?``
I told her all that happend with Kyle ,waiting for an answer. Her face was neutral,she didn’t know what to say,she obviously thought that i wasn’t in..love with him. I bet she’s shocked..
``I know about Kyle..``
``You do?Please,don’t tell him that i told you ..and that i came over here crying.``
``I can’t..``
``Why?``
Her eyes were focused on something behind me. I froze on my sit,scared to look behind me.
``Because now i know..Charl. You should’ve stayed to clear the things..``
``You were here the whole time?``
``Kind of..Please don’t leave again!`` he begged me and it looked like his voice was almost cracking.
``I won’t.I was stupid to leave like that,i know. I feel terrible,but it’s not your fault.``
``I heard your fight with your mom. I guess all the neighbors head it..``
All of the sudden,my tears were running down my face,and i felt like i was breaking. All this situation with my mom,all the things that happend,everything about my past made me want to cry my eyes out. Kyle jumped next to me and pulled me in a tight hug,burying my face into his chest. I didn’t know what to do anymore..if i’ll lose my mother,i’ll be devastated literally..but with all these fights,i’m gonna go mad in no time.
``Hey,hey..look at me!Charlotte!`` Kyle made me look into his eyes.``It’s gonna be okay.Belive me,it’s gonna be okay.``
``No,it’s not gonna be. It won’t ever be okay. Ever..`` i told him,after that i buried my face once again into his chest.
I calmed down after awhile,drinking a cup of tea,under a warm blanket. They decided to watch a film,my favourite one..Tangled. Disney animation,one of the best i’ve ever seen,it can make me smile everytime i watch it. I was tired ,sleepy and i didn’t notice when i fell asleep on Kyle’s lap.He was holding me tight ,and before i fell asleep completly,he gave me a forehead kiss.How can this guy be real? I’ve seen this type of guys only in movies or read about them in books. I really do have to get used to the fact that..he likes me. He actually said that he loves me.I know i love him too,but what if it’s not the best idea ? What if we’re gonna lose each other? My phone buzzed in my pocket,interrupting my thoughts and waking me up. I was still on Kyle’s lap,with his arms around my waist and his face buried in my neck. His breath touching my skin was giving me shivers,especially because his lips were touching it . I got my phoneslowly out of my pocket and checked it..
Unknown number :
``I heard about the fight you had with your mother. I want you to know that if i could,right now i’d hug you tight and keep you in my arms,just for you to feel safe. Take care.``
And i thought my problems were over..
Ch. 5
Why now? Why? Just..Who’s this guy who keeps texing me?It’s obviously not Kyle,’cause he’s still sleeping.I won’t destroy my moment of happiness because of this freak who creeps me out,even if he’s trying to be sweet and nice.
``Just tell me who you are. I don’t have time to waste by talking to someone who’s obviously not brave enough to show his face,man up and tell me face to face that he likes me.``
I threw my phone somewhere on the couch,next to me,rubbed my eyes and buried my face into Kyle’s chest once again. It was 8 am,and i thought i could take another nap..But i rememberd that it was Wednesday and..we had school. Damn. I jumped from Kyle’s nap and started to run towards Mia’s bed,to wake her up. After last night’s events,we totally forgot that we’re supposed to go to school. To make things cooler,my first class was P.E. ..
``What’s going on,Charl?Why are you running like that?Sleep..`` Kyle told me,with his sleepy voice,rubbing his eyes and yawning.
``It’s Wednesday!You have a Biology test,Mia has to present her English project and i’m gonna be late for P.E. and the coach is gonna kill me!``
``Damn it!I forgot!`` he jumped of the couch and started to look for his backpack.
``Mia,for God’s sake!Wake up!We’re gonna be late.`` i yelled at her,hoping that she’s gonna get that pillow off her face.
``What?!`` that’s the only thing she asked before rolling out of her bed and falling on the floor.``My project!I worked so hard ..``
``Stop complaining and get dressed already!``
Yeah,i was the one talking. I was wearing one of Mia’s PJs,looked terrible with my bed hair and without a little bit of make up on.. I rushed to the bathroom after taking some clothes from Mia’s drawer. Actually,those were my –emergency- clothes that i left here in case of..i don’t know. The point is that it was an emergency,okay? I took a quick shower,brushed my hair and my teeth,did my make up and i was like another person.
Downstairs,Kyle and Mia were waiting for me,ready to go and probably wanting to kill me because i was late ..again.
``New person!At least,i look decent now.`` i laughed ,remembering my face just after i woke up.
``I prefer the both sides of you,just so you know.`` Kyle smirked,reaching for my hand.
``Oh,disgusting. Act like this when i’m not near,kay?`` Mia orderd us,opening the front door.
I rolled my eyes and laughed. Is this real? For the first time,i’m really happy.Of course,after a disastruous night. That reminded me to text my mom,to see if she’s okay. We have our issues,been through enough,but i still love her and i wanna see if she’s good.
``Mom,now i’m on my way to school. Are you okay?``
``Yeah,going to work. Take care,and i’m sorry,Charl.I mean it..``
``It’s okay,mom.We’re cool.Take care .``
She was okay,upset because of what i said last night,but it was true and she needed to know. I do feel sorry for how i reacted,but i couldn’t take it anymore. Now everything was ..great. I mean,i’m happy,with my friends,late for school..Best day till now,what can i say?
We arrived at school,parked the car and started to run towards our classes. Before entering into the gym,Kyle grabbed my hand,pulled me closer and gave me a quick kiss.I wished him good luck for his Biology test and then i rushed to change into my gym suit. The coach was angry at me because i was late and she started yelling at me,asking me why am i always late..
``Mrs,i’m always late..it’s just how i work. I’m late at everything and everytime.Please excuse me.``
She got used to me being late,so she didn’t really punish me. We just had to make two teams to play volley..The only thing that bothered me is that Christian and his friend are the capitans.Of course,they’re influencing the teachers too. God damn this schoolar system!
``Walker,in my team.`` said Rogers,telling me to come next to him with a hand move.
``Great..`` i mumbled.
``You,there. Jim,next to Carl,Cath on my right side and Charlotte on my left side.``
``I’m so honored that you finaly know my first name.``i said sarcasticaly.
He gave me a smile,then he high fived Matt,the other capitan.I’m praying for the best right now..I’m in Rogers’ team,i’m not brilliant at volley and i swear i’m gonna fall any minute from now.
He got the ball everytime it showed up in our side . Don’t blame me if i don’t use those sport terms that you wanna hear,i’m not good at sport and i’m not gonna fill my head with unusefull stuff.After 10 minutes of playing,actually running from one side to another,i finally got the chance to pass the ball. I was so proud of myself that i got more involved in the game and succeded for the first time in playing it. Christian grew a big smile on his face everytime i passed that ball and scored. He actually high fived me a few times. What’s going on with me? I’m good at sport,Rogers high fived me,my day is weird,but i like it!
A moment of inattention cost me my dignity: I tripped on my own feet and almost fell,but Christian surprisingly caught me before smashing my face on the gym’s floor.Everything was in slow motion,he grabbed me by putting one of his hands around my waist,and the other one on my back. I couldn’t help it and i looked straight into his eyes. They looked different,i mean,when i looked at him that close,he was a different person,not an arrogant jerk that can play with your heart .He looked scared,a bit confused of what was happening,and a smile appread in the corner of his mouth.
``Thank you.Now,if you don’t mind,can you..``i asked him,feeling my cheeks turn red.
``Erm,yeah.Sorry..`` he put me back on my feet,scratching the back of his head.
I noticed that everybody was starring at us.Please don’t tell me that they thought we had a moment over there!The guy just saved me from destroying my face,that’s it!Nothing else! It’s Christian we’re talking about here!He doesn’t give a damn about me and i kind of hate him,somehow. So there’s nothing between us. I’d never be with someone like him,because he the `one night stand` type.
After the class,i changed quickly and rushed to my locker to get my books before everyone’s out of the classes and start to spread rumours about what happend in the gym. That’s what i needed,gosh.. I was stressed out ! I hurried to get all the books i needed in my bag for the next class,but unfortunately the bell rang and students started to walk on the hallways.
I felt a hand around my waist and i kind of panicked. I slamed my locker and turned around to slap the bastard that thought it was the best idea ever to do that. To be honest,i thought it was Christian and it was more tempting to punch him in the face.
``Whoa whoa ,Charl!It’s me!`` Kyle took a step back,scared of my reaction.
``Kyle,dear God!You scared me..`` i said teaking a sigh of relief.
``What’s going on?``
``Long story..``
I put my bag down,so did he,then he gave me a tight hug,kissing my forehead.
``We have French,so you’ve got enough time to explain,right?`` he laughed after telling me that,his laugh making me giggle.
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`Good morning,good morning! It’s new day,a fresh start,maybe it’s the luckiest day of your life ! Rise and ..” my radio tried to wake me up with such a motivational morning speech,that i had to turn it off .
’Cool,another day,another pain in my ass. .Ugh.’ i said turning on my back,staring at the ceiling.
I got off my bed,after rubbing my eyes and yawning for like 5 times. I hate morings,i’m not a morning person and you definetly don’t wanna piss me off when i just woke up. I took a quick look in the mirror and i was,like always,looking terrible. My blonde hair looked like some squirrels played with it all night long,my …show more content…
right cheek was red because of the teddy bear that was pressed on my face-i’m used to press my pillow or my teddy bear on my face at night..it’s just a bad habit,but that’s the only way i can make myself fall asleep- and my eyes refused to open enogh for me to see properly.
I brushed my hair,then my teeth,i took a shower and after that i got dressed. It was time for breakfast,or at least i thought it was. I was already late for school,so i grabed a cereal bar and threw it in my bag. My mom was like always not home at this time,she’ll eventualy come home tonight or tomorrow..
I heard a horn outside my house and i knew i was late,again,like always.. Mia and Kyle were waiting for me,they were angry at me and i knew it.
„Why are you always late?” Kyle asked me and i felt judged by his tone.
„Sorry,sorry,sorry! You know i’m not a morning person..” i tried to escape from the situation i got into by myself .
„Fine,you’re forgiven. Get in the car.” Mia orederd me laughing.
I closed the door behind me and i gave them a look ,plus an innocent smile to redeem my ’sins’ .They laughed and started asking me about our math homework. Really,math? They know i suck at math and that i didn’t give a damn about that homework. I knew enough math just to avoid failing the semester.
My phone buzzed in my pocket,so i took it out to check . It was a text from my mom..
„I’m coming home tomorrow. Take care.”
Of course she wasn’t coming home tonight. Why would she? Ugh,i just hate everything..
„Okay. You too” i replied,frowning at my phone’s screen.
„Everything okay?” Mia asked me with a worried look on her face.
„Yeah,just a mail.” I lied,smiling.
She nooded her head and turned back in her seat,looking at the road.
In 10 minutes we arrived in highschool’s parking lot. Yay. I missed cursing these morons from here.. I saw the guys from the football team surrounded by a bunch of silly girls that will eventually end in their beds,but hey! I don’t care.
I grabed my bag and got off the car. I hugged my friends and rushed to my English class,because i wanted to have a good seat. Christian Rogers wasn’t on my ’favourite people’ list. Jerk,football player and stupid. I’ve seen rocks smarter than him.. And that’s because i don’t really like to be around him,so i don’t really know how well he’s doing in school. Again,why would i care?
I know i’m using ``again`` too many times,but i have my own reasons for that..
Anyway,i entererd the class,but i was late. Mrs. Carlson was already starting a new lesson..
’’Miss Walker. How come that you’re always late?”she asked me coldly.
’’Please excuse me,Mrs. Carlson. Can i go to my seat,now?”
”Because you’re late,your seat is taken. Please,stay there,next to mister Rogers.”
No. No no no. Okay,i was expecting this.. I hate being right! I mean,right now i hate myself for thinking about getting the `chance` to stay next to that jerk. Arghh. I was mentally slapping myself..really hard.
``You’re dying of excitement on the inside,Walker.” He said,growing a big grin on his face.
``Yeah,you got me. Yeppy.” I said sarcastically,taking my seat.
``Shhh!`` i heard the teacher.
Today’s lesson was about Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet . Tragic love stories.. My day can’t get worse. I don’t belive in things like soul mates,love at first sight or true love. Everything is just an ilusion of our stupid heart taking control over our brains.That’s all! Everybody here is a hopeless romantic..and why? They aspire to things that won’t ever happen,they are just fooling themselves. Their eyes are tehnically open,but the truth is..they’re living their lives like it’s just a dream and they’re sleeping. Unrealistic people,ugh.
And of course,today’s lesson wasn’t my exact problem..Christian stared at me the whole class. He thought,maybe,if he’s gonna stare at me with his puppy brown eyes,i’m gonna fall into his bed. Yeah,sure!Like this is gonna happen.
My thoughts were interrupted by a tap on my shoulder. It was Rogers,giving me a little piece of paper with something wrote on it.
``you free tonight?xxx``
You’ve got to be kidding me.. I rolled my eyes and threw away that piece of paper. He looked at me confused. Yeah,i refused his offer to give me `the best night of my life`,as he called it after the class was dismissed.
``You can’t refuse me.`` he blocked my locker.
``Move.`` i said coldly.
``Nobody refuses me!`` he almost yelled at me.
``Oh,look. I did.`` i said calmly,smiling at him.``Now move .``
He finally understood what i said and moved his ass away from my locker. Everybody was looking at me with their eyes widened. ``She refused him?!`` i heard a girl behind me. ``She’s such a fool,God damn it.`` i heard another one.
``What’s going on?`` Kyle asked me,appearing from nowhere.``Why is everybody looking at you like that and what was Rogers doing here?``
``He thought i’m one of those silly girls that can be fooled so easily” i told him while i got the books i needed for my math class. I was lucky enough to be in the same class with Kyle,so we sat next to each other.
``You beast. You refused him,right?``
``No,i’m meeting him tonight at 7.``
``You kidding?!`` he asked me shocked,almost yelling.
``Do you really think i’m that stupid?`` i laughed when i asked him that.
``You scared me! Now let’s go,i don’t wanna stay in the front ones..`` he put his hand over my shoulders and started walking towards class.
``Walker!``
My day couldn’t get worse..Yeah,i have to stop thinkin’ like that.. I heard Moira calling my name behind me. Popular girl,stupid as a fish,looks like a barbie doll..From all i said ,you can understand that my biggest dream is to punch her in the face.. What on Earth she wants to tell me?!
Ch. 2
I rolled my eyes,obviously annoyed. I turned around to face her and that’s when i saw her red face. She was angry..But why? And why was i involved in this?
``What happend,Barbie?`` i asked her amused.
``What’s this?`` she yelled at me,then she gave me a little piece of paper. It was the one from Christian. How the f.. ``It was ment for you! I saw that! I saw you two in class!``
``Whoa whoa,love. I have no intentions in letting your boyfriend screw me,okay? If i could,i’d shave his eyebrows.``
``You freak! Just stay away from him!`` she told me with her angry-kitten look,then she turned around and walked away.
``Belive me,i try..`` i said that just for myself..
We headed to our class,sat in the back and tried to make the time to pass faster. Math class is a torture for me and Kyle. We understand nothing,the teacher sucks,it’s a horrible subject in school and i think it should be prohibited by law! The teacher understood long ago that we’re hopeless,so he decided to leave us alone –thank God- . I coverd my face with my palms and i waited for that damn bell to ring. Kyle poked my sholder and then gave me a piece of paper. Oh,please,not you too..
``what’s wrong?`` I shook my head and gave him a smile.
``nothing`` i lied again. Why do i have to start this week like this : I lie,i’m mad and i’m possibly hurting my friends..
``don’t lie. I know you too well``
``i’m okay.it’s just my mom,you know..``
He looked at me worried,and offered me his hand. I took it and he squeezed it.
``I’m here for you,okay?`` he whisperd.
I gave him a ’thank you’ smile,then i turned around to see what’s happening around us. Nobody was paying attention,just two girls in the front seats. They were the pure definition of ’nerds’ . I was doing pretty well in school,but i wasn’t that passionated like them.
Okay,so another day passed by and now i’m on my way home. Mia and Kyle stayed for some extra classes and i had to go home all by myself. It’s okay,i got my iPod with me ,so i’m gonna make everything around me look like a music video.At this point,i’m not so original i can say..
I felt my phone buzzing in my pocket,so i checked what was going on. It was a text from an unknown number.Yay,another freak making some ’funny’ jokes.
’Try to smile more often. You’re
beautiful.’
Secret lover or stalker? Because i’m not an optimistic person,i think it’s the second one. I looked around to see if there was someone that could’ve sent me that message,but i was alone .Okay,an old lady with her dog doesn’t really count as somebody that could send me texts,right?
In 5 minutes i was home. When i opend the front door,i smelled something.. Steak? I don’t think that my mom arrived earlier and decided to make dinner..
It was grandma. She does that very often..When my mother’s not home,she’s coming over to cook something and to stay with me for awhile.
’Grandma! Thank you..i’m starving!’ i said,then i ran to hug her.
’I thought so,darling.How was your day?’
’Pretty boring,like always.Yours?’
We continued to talk,had dinner and then went in the living room to watch TV . I told her about Christian’s intention,Moira’s jealousy attack and mom’s text. Soon after she gave me some pieces of advice,she had to leave. I went in my room,opened my laptop and checked my mail. Facebook,Twitter,Tumblr..Unknown user.. wait what? Another one? Or it’s the same person?
’I wish you could know how i really am. You’d be surprised.’
Okay,someone’s making fun of me and it’s getting on my nerves.
’Are you having fun?’ i typed in the answer box.
’What do you mean?’
’You’re the one who sent me that text earlier,aren’t you?’
’Yes. But what do you mean?’
’You’re obviously making fun of me.Please,stop. I’m not in the mood of insulting you.’
’I’m not,okay? Why is it so hard to belive that someone actually likes you?’
’What ? Everyone sees me as a freak. Stop it..It’s not funny.’
’I’m not making fun of you,okay? You’re not a freak. You’re just different than the others. That’s why i like you..’
’Are you even in the same school as me?Why don’t you come and tell me these things face to face?’
’Yes ,i am and no,i can’t.’
’Then why do you tell me all these things?’
’I just wanted you to know.’
’It’s actually nothing. It’s nothing for me. You’re an anon. ,you tell me this and what do you expect?’
’I expect you to understand that someone,besides your friends,cares about you. I have to go.. Message me here if you need anything’
’For God’s sake! I don’t know who you are! How the actual fuck can i tell you if i need something?I don’t know you!’
I was pissed off. An anon,which i obviously don’t know,decided to tell me that he likes me. I’m gonna throw a party with the theme ’’stupidity’’. Okay,i can’t say that it’s not sweet,but it’s irrelevant and i’m pretty sure someone’s really making fun of me.
I made my bed,got under the sheets and put my headphones on. I decided to fall asleep and forget everything about this weird day ..but all of the sudden,my phone buzzed.
’’Come on!’’ i yelled at my phone screen.
Unknown number :
’Good night. You’ll find out who i am in no time. Please,just be patient and give me time.’
’’Awesomee!’’ i said out loud,then i lied on my back . ’’This week is gonna be something..’’
Ch. 3
The next day,i woke up feeling different in every kind of way. For the first time in the last 7 years,i felt..alive and happy. I was actually dying of excitement to go to school and scan the areas for that one guy that told me he likes me. Even if i know it can be a huge joke,i was still happy that someone,even if that someone is joking,told me that i’m beautiful and not a freak. Well,besides my friends. They love me the way i am,they call me weird,but they love me. How could they not? I’m fabulous..not.
At school,the atmosphere was really.. i mean,it felt different. Maybe because of my mood,or maybe because something happend and Kyle,Mia and me were the last ones to find out what. Everyone was talking about a break up,but we couldn’t understand who broke up with who and why. Yeah,we were acting like we don’t care,but we were humans,so we were curious. I stopped a random girl passing by and i asked her :
„Do you know what’s happening here?”
„You don’t know? How could you not know? Christopher broke up with Moira. She’s devastated..” she answerd,leaving me a bittersweet sensation.
„Oh,i bet she is..” i said sarcastically.
So,it seems like there are problems in paradise.I chuckled just thinking of Moira’s face when Christian told her it was over. She was glued to him..literally. I knew it’ll get at this point at a certain time,but i didn’t know exactly when. He was obviously bored of her,he was hooking up with different ’blonde at soul and brain’ girls ,every night was spent with another girl. Never the same,new girls,sometimes fresh men..That boy doesn’t have a piece of dignity!He desgusts me with every step he takes..i mean,he’s a good lookin’ guy,looks like a God who decided to take a walk through the mortals: everybody wants him,you can have him ,but only for one night. Moira was lucky enough to stay with him for like..5 months? Yeah,they’ve been through a lot of fights and i really don’t know how Christian stayed with her for such a long time. Now that he broke up with he,i bet she’s really devastated,but not because she loved him or something. Her popularity level must’ve gone down-down. Christian remains with her player-jerk-king of everything attitude and Moira..well,she remains with her heart ’broken’,low level of popularity and her gymnastics team. No,not cheerleading,in case you thought she was a cheerleader. Rogers dealed with the cheerleaders in the first two weeks of the semester.
Leaving all this teen drama behind,Mia and i were late for History and Kyle was late for P.E. I bet the couch is gonna punish him with 30 pushups,like always. To be honest,the couch is not that evil.. With all these pushups,punishments and other stuff that he’s doing in P.E.,Kyle was becoming damn hot. He did a good job,so now we’re trying to make him be late for the class just to get some punishments. Hey,he has to stay fit!
Trying to pay attention to how bad was the communism ,my phone buzzed. My heart started to beat faster and faster,but i tried to stay cool. Text message from unknown number :
``Wow,so you really don’t care that someone likes you?I thought you’d be more enthusiastic.``
``So,it is a joke. ``
``No.`` he replied faster than i thought.
``Look,i’ll text you the break,i’m in the History class.``
``I know. Talk to you later.`` What?!He knows i have History right now? I looked around me to see if someone’s using his phone,but everybody was paying attention. Well,not everybody.. Mr. Lester caught me texting with that annoying guy who keeps making fun of me,took my phone and gave me 2 hours of detention. Yay...
``But Mr. Lester! I can’t stay in detention!``
``I bet you can. It’s your fault that you’ve been caught using your phone in my class.``
``But it was an emergency!``
``Really? And can you explain to me what’s that emergency?``
``Well,ehm..my dog is sick.My mom texted me to tell me that,that Sparky had to stay at the vet over night.``
``I’m gonna write this one down. It’s the best till now,miss Walker. See you in the detention class.``
``Ugh. But it’s not fair!``
Great,now i have to stay two more hours in school . Just..awesome.If i’m gonna find out who that guy is,but i’m not going to,i’ll make him pay for this.
After the class,Mia,Kyle and i had a `meeting`. I found out that Kyle also got 2 hours of detention because he refused to do his punishment at P.E. and yelled at his teacher. Watch out,we’ve got a badass over here! Mia called us criminals,we called ourselves badasses. There’s a special relationship between us three..nobody can understand it,besides us,of course.
Time passed,Mia went home and we went to..the detention class. In there we saw really badasses..i mean,we were as innocent as a little baby. They’ve been caught stealing,smokin’ weird plants,they had violent fights with other guys..and there were we: I texted during tha class and he yelled at a teacher. Really proud of ourselves..
``Ms. Walker,Mr. Morrison,take a seat please. `` Mr. Lester told us after we closed the door behind us.
``Great!`` i whispered,searching for Kyles hand after me. I don’t wanna stay next to one of those freaks. It’s creppy like hell in here!
``I’m here,don’t worry.`` he took my hand and then a big grin grew on his face.
His smile always gave me shivers. He’s that kind of guy that can make you smile even if you cried for 3 days in a row. His brown eyes can calm you down,his smile makes you blush and when he hugs you,you feel safe. His blonde ,messy,obviously sexy hair looks incredible everytime you look at him. God damn it,he’s handsome. That kind of handsome that you don’t wanna lose. I liked him from the moment we first talked,and i started to get more and more involved in our friendship,so i decided to give up on my feelings for him,but i can’t get him out of my mind: his smile,his voice,his damn accent,his everything. I just can’t.
During the detention,he played with my hair. He tried to braid ,and i want to make sure to put the right accent on TRIED. I giggled everytime i felt him touching accidentally my neck,but he seemed to understand what’s going on and stoped. Too bad,i didn’t want him to stop.. I always loved when he took my hand or when i was buriend in his chest into those big,warm hugs..or when he looked straight into my eyes and smiled.Damn it,i knew i was crazy about all these things,but i’m risking our friendship if i don’t stop acting like i’m in love with him.Wait..i never thought of that..
I’m..in love with him? No,no. I can’t be,he’s my bestfriend!I can’t do this..
After two hours,we finally got out of that `jail`. It is horrible! I’m never gonna use my phone in class again! That’s a freakin’ promise! It was creepy,all those freaks were lookin’ at us like they wanted to eat us alive. I’m gonna put some money aside and buy a bodyguard .
``Hey,i need to tell you something..`` my thoughts were interrupted by Kyle.
``Of course,what happened?``
Ch. 4
Cool.Now what?
``I wanted to tell you that i like someone..``he said,scratching the back of his head.
``Oh,i think i know who you’re talkin’ about.``
``You do?`` he asked me ,with his eyes widened.
``Mia!You like Mia!`` i said smiling and jumping around him like a little girl.
``No,i don’t like Mia,Charl!``
``I’m so happy fo-...wait,what?You don’t?``
``No. I like someone else..it’s a girl i’ve always liked.``
``Aw!Tell me about her.``
Outside i was milk and honey,but inside i was torn apart.Kyle liked a girl..Wait,why am i acting like this?He’s my bestfriend.I’m not supposed to care about his love life..I’m not allowed.
``She’s like a girl with two lives,two sides of her beauty.One is dark,shadowed by the past that stil hurts ,and not everybody knows this part..and there’s the one always shining,spreading love and happiness with every smile she wears. I..loved her since we first met,but i was afraid that i’ll lose her if i tell her. Now,i think that there are more chances to lose her if i don’t..”his happy face turned into a serious one,looking at me with his deep brown eyes that i’ve always loved.
I didn’t realise that he grabed my hand earlier and pulled me closer.
What if he was the one who sent me those texts?That explains how he knew when i’m having History.He likes me,but why did he sent me those texts first?Why not face to face? Maybe for him it’s a game,because he doesn’t know that i have feelings for him. It’s hurting so much..my bestfriend made fun of me..
``You!You were the guy who messaged me!You could’ve told me face to face,Kyle!``
``What are you talking about?What messages?``he asked me..confused.
``Don’t play dumb!You made fun of me!Now and then!How could you?`` i needed to end this because i felt my voice cracking any minute from now. I turned around,holding my tears and walked away.
``Charlotte!`` he sounded broken.
``Just drop it!`` i yelled ,not lookin’ back.
I was dumb and i knew it. I shouldn’t have done that.But i can’t go back now..my heart broke into pieces. From that happy girl that i was 10 minutes ago,i turned into a walking dead.
I rushed home just to find my mom with an extreme hangover,in the kitchen drinkin’ some coffee.
``Where have you been?``she asked me puting her cup down on the table.
``I should be the one asking that.``
``The principal called me earlier and he told me that you got two hours of detention.``
``How come that when the principal calls,you always answer,but when i’m calling,your phone is always off?!`` i tried to remain calm,but i couldn’t handle it anymore.
``I don’t have to explain myself in front of you!``
``Then i don’t have to explain myself ,neither!``
``Don’t talk to me like that!I’m your mother!``
``And i’m your daughter,for God’s sake!``
``What happend to you?``
``You!You happend !I’m like this because of you!Why can’t you be like the other mothers?I understand that it’s because dad left you,but belive me,i’m sick of this!You tried for two times to become better,to get close to me,but now?Now what? You should’ve left me with grandma the first time you left!Why did you come back?Do you have fun making me suffer?``
``What did you just say?``
``Nothing. I’m coming home on Friday. Maybe until then you’re gonna be sober and with your mind clearer than now.`` i said wiping my tears,getting my bag and leaving the house.
I heard her yelling after me to come back,but i’m not going to.Not until i’m calm. I had enough problems today and i don’t wanna turn into one of those drama queens. I have to let it out now,just to avoid doing it later and in the wrong place,in front of someone that i don’t want to.
``I’m coming!`` i heard Mia right behind the door.``Charl..what happend?`` she said looking at me terrified. ``Come inside!It’s freakin’ cold outside!``
I got inside,just staring at her. I don’t wanna know how exactly i was lookin’,but i bet i was looking..dead. My eyes were red,my skin was pale and my lips were dry,i was breathing heavily and i was freezing.
``Can i stay over toinght,please?`` i asked her,wiping my tears once more.
``Of course!How can you ask me?Of course you can stay..just calm down and tell me what happend..``
``Well,first Kyle..and then my mom.``
``The fights with your mom..i know.But what’s with Kyle?``
I told her all that happend with Kyle ,waiting for an answer. Her face was neutral,she didn’t know what to say,she obviously thought that i wasn’t in..love with him. I bet she’s shocked..
``I know about Kyle..``
``You do?Please,don’t tell him that i told you ..and that i came over here crying.``
``I can’t..``
``Why?``
Her eyes were focused on something behind me. I froze on my sit,scared to look behind me.
``Because now i know..Charl. You should’ve stayed to clear the things..``
``You were here the whole time?``
``Kind of..Please don’t leave again!`` he begged me and it looked like his voice was almost cracking.
``I won’t.I was stupid to leave like that,i know. I feel terrible,but it’s not your fault.``
``I heard your fight with your mom. I guess all the neighbors head it..``
All of the sudden,my tears were running down my face,and i felt like i was breaking. All this situation with my mom,all the things that happend,everything about my past made me want to cry my eyes out. Kyle jumped next to me and pulled me in a tight hug,burying my face into his chest. I didn’t know what to do anymore..if i’ll lose my mother,i’ll be devastated literally..but with all these fights,i’m gonna go mad in no time.
``Hey,hey..look at me!Charlotte!`` Kyle made me look into his eyes.``It’s gonna be okay.Belive me,it’s gonna be okay.``
``No,it’s not gonna be. It won’t ever be okay. Ever..`` i told him,after that i buried my face once again into his chest.
I calmed down after awhile,drinking a cup of tea,under a warm blanket. They decided to watch a film,my favourite one..Tangled. Disney animation,one of the best i’ve ever seen,it can make me smile everytime i watch it. I was tired ,sleepy and i didn’t notice when i fell asleep on Kyle’s lap.He was holding me tight ,and before i fell asleep completly,he gave me a forehead kiss.How can this guy be real? I’ve seen this type of guys only in movies or read about them in books. I really do have to get used to the fact that..he likes me. He actually said that he loves me.I know i love him too,but what if it’s not the best idea ? What if we’re gonna lose each other? My phone buzzed in my pocket,interrupting my thoughts and waking me up. I was still on Kyle’s lap,with his arms around my waist and his face buried in my neck. His breath touching my skin was giving me shivers,especially because his lips were touching it . I got my phoneslowly out of my pocket and checked it..
Unknown number :
``I heard about the fight you had with your mother. I want you to know that if i could,right now i’d hug you tight and keep you in my arms,just for you to feel safe. Take care.``
And i thought my problems were over..
Ch. 5
Why now? Why? Just..Who’s this guy who keeps texing me?It’s obviously not Kyle,’cause he’s still sleeping.I won’t destroy my moment of happiness because of this freak who creeps me out,even if he’s trying to be sweet and nice.
``Just tell me who you are. I don’t have time to waste by talking to someone who’s obviously not brave enough to show his face,man up and tell me face to face that he likes me.``
I threw my phone somewhere on the couch,next to me,rubbed my eyes and buried my face into Kyle’s chest once again. It was 8 am,and i thought i could take another nap..But i rememberd that it was Wednesday and..we had school. Damn. I jumped from Kyle’s nap and started to run towards Mia’s bed,to wake her up. After last night’s events,we totally forgot that we’re supposed to go to school. To make things cooler,my first class was P.E. ..
``What’s going on,Charl?Why are you running like that?Sleep..`` Kyle told me,with his sleepy voice,rubbing his eyes and yawning.
``It’s Wednesday!You have a Biology test,Mia has to present her English project and i’m gonna be late for P.E. and the coach is gonna kill me!``
``Damn it!I forgot!`` he jumped of the couch and started to look for his backpack.
``Mia,for God’s sake!Wake up!We’re gonna be late.`` i yelled at her,hoping that she’s gonna get that pillow off her face.
``What?!`` that’s the only thing she asked before rolling out of her bed and falling on the floor.``My project!I worked so hard ..``
``Stop complaining and get dressed already!``
Yeah,i was the one talking. I was wearing one of Mia’s PJs,looked terrible with my bed hair and without a little bit of make up on.. I rushed to the bathroom after taking some clothes from Mia’s drawer. Actually,those were my –emergency- clothes that i left here in case of..i don’t know. The point is that it was an emergency,okay? I took a quick shower,brushed my hair and my teeth,did my make up and i was like another person.
Downstairs,Kyle and Mia were waiting for me,ready to go and probably wanting to kill me because i was late ..again.
``New person!At least,i look decent now.`` i laughed ,remembering my face just after i woke up.
``I prefer the both sides of you,just so you know.`` Kyle smirked,reaching for my hand.
``Oh,disgusting. Act like this when i’m not near,kay?`` Mia orderd us,opening the front door.
I rolled my eyes and laughed. Is this real? For the first time,i’m really happy.Of course,after a disastruous night. That reminded me to text my mom,to see if she’s okay. We have our issues,been through enough,but i still love her and i wanna see if she’s good.
``Mom,now i’m on my way to school. Are you okay?``
``Yeah,going to work. Take care,and i’m sorry,Charl.I mean it..``
``It’s okay,mom.We’re cool.Take care .``
She was okay,upset because of what i said last night,but it was true and she needed to know. I do feel sorry for how i reacted,but i couldn’t take it anymore. Now everything was ..great. I mean,i’m happy,with my friends,late for school..Best day till now,what can i say?
We arrived at school,parked the car and started to run towards our classes. Before entering into the gym,Kyle grabbed my hand,pulled me closer and gave me a quick kiss.I wished him good luck for his Biology test and then i rushed to change into my gym suit. The coach was angry at me because i was late and she started yelling at me,asking me why am i always late..
``Mrs,i’m always late..it’s just how i work. I’m late at everything and everytime.Please excuse me.``
She got used to me being late,so she didn’t really punish me. We just had to make two teams to play volley..The only thing that bothered me is that Christian and his friend are the capitans.Of course,they’re influencing the teachers too. God damn this schoolar system!
``Walker,in my team.`` said Rogers,telling me to come next to him with a hand move.
``Great..`` i mumbled.
``You,there. Jim,next to Carl,Cath on my right side and Charlotte on my left side.``
``I’m so honored that you finaly know my first name.``i said sarcasticaly.
He gave me a smile,then he high fived Matt,the other capitan.I’m praying for the best right now..I’m in Rogers’ team,i’m not brilliant at volley and i swear i’m gonna fall any minute from now.
He got the ball everytime it showed up in our side . Don’t blame me if i don’t use those sport terms that you wanna hear,i’m not good at sport and i’m not gonna fill my head with unusefull stuff.After 10 minutes of playing,actually running from one side to another,i finally got the chance to pass the ball. I was so proud of myself that i got more involved in the game and succeded for the first time in playing it. Christian grew a big smile on his face everytime i passed that ball and scored. He actually high fived me a few times. What’s going on with me? I’m good at sport,Rogers high fived me,my day is weird,but i like it!
A moment of inattention cost me my dignity: I tripped on my own feet and almost fell,but Christian surprisingly caught me before smashing my face on the gym’s floor.Everything was in slow motion,he grabbed me by putting one of his hands around my waist,and the other one on my back. I couldn’t help it and i looked straight into his eyes. They looked different,i mean,when i looked at him that close,he was a different person,not an arrogant jerk that can play with your heart .He looked scared,a bit confused of what was happening,and a smile appread in the corner of his mouth.
``Thank you.Now,if you don’t mind,can you..``i asked him,feeling my cheeks turn red.
``Erm,yeah.Sorry..`` he put me back on my feet,scratching the back of his head.
I noticed that everybody was starring at us.Please don’t tell me that they thought we had a moment over there!The guy just saved me from destroying my face,that’s it!Nothing else! It’s Christian we’re talking about here!He doesn’t give a damn about me and i kind of hate him,somehow. So there’s nothing between us. I’d never be with someone like him,because he the `one night stand` type.
After the class,i changed quickly and rushed to my locker to get my books before everyone’s out of the classes and start to spread rumours about what happend in the gym. That’s what i needed,gosh.. I was stressed out ! I hurried to get all the books i needed in my bag for the next class,but unfortunately the bell rang and students started to walk on the hallways.
I felt a hand around my waist and i kind of panicked. I slamed my locker and turned around to slap the bastard that thought it was the best idea ever to do that. To be honest,i thought it was Christian and it was more tempting to punch him in the face.
``Whoa whoa ,Charl!It’s me!`` Kyle took a step back,scared of my reaction.
``Kyle,dear God!You scared me..`` i said teaking a sigh of relief.
``What’s going on?``
``Long story..``
I put my bag down,so did he,then he gave me a tight hug,kissing my forehead.
``We have French,so you’ve got enough time to explain,right?`` he laughed after telling me that,his laugh making me giggle.