Personal Narrative: My Life With Alcoholic Father

Living with an alcoholic father changed the atmosphere in the house; therefore, changed my beliefs with God. Whereas wondering why was I born into this family? With every star, comes a tear. Like rolling thunder, like rolling anger. Being destructive like a tornado. Breathing hard like a hurricane. Being hot like the sun, I become a meteor from the sky. With every wave, comes a fear like a tsunami. With rejection comes an earthquake. Being lonely like a drought, being hurt like being damaged by hail. Relationships are like mudslides, they come and go. My environment is like a volcano, I never know when I will explode. My identity is like a typhoon, along with not having control of the avalanches. Personality traits are just like the four seasons. Having self-image is like the change of the clouds. October 22,2013, I walked into Mercy Ministries, in Fenton, MO. I got accepted to Mercy Ministries, a Christian program, to help young women, whereas lives are transformed and hope is restored. On April 5, 2005, is when my life really started to fall apart. Of course, this was special day, my mother’s birthday. My father was very intoxicated that night, and that’s when the
fight’s started. I always stood up to him. But, that night I lost that fight. Consequently, I knew I need to be transformed into the young woman, I know I am supposed to be; moreover, I need to be freed from my past. However, it was not until, eight years later, I was at Mercy Ministries, for nine months, where you are only supposed to be there 6 months. Until, I think differently, and live differently; therefore, I need to forgive, and not let anything get in my way.
Growing up relationships were very unhealthy, living with an alcoholic father made the stress rise.
The screaming, fighting, and things being broken had shaped my life into being angry myself, and others. I felt worthless, unloved, and not wanted. I remember screaming at God what did I do wrong, to have this life. Since, hope needs to be restored in my life, I must manage my emotions. In fact, one book I enjoyed was, “Me and My Big Mouth, By Joyce Myers”. After, I done reading, Me and My Big Mouth; Consequently, I said aloud, “Where have you been my whole life”! Therefore, I knew at moment I needed to speak life with my words, and act like God with good morals, along as I want a better future for myself, and others around me. I must let go of the past, so God can work on restoring my
hope.
In conclusion, I graduated from Mercy Ministries, on July 31,2015, my life was transformed, and hope was restored. Christ has eliminated my guilt-the Holy Spirit tells me I am a child of God-Awesome victory is mine-My mind is set on the Spirit-The Power of the resurrection is in me-I have intercession by the Holy spirit and Jesus Only God knows why things happen as they do-Nothing separates me from God’s love- Satan has been defeated!