A Hero's Journey Diary Entry

I woke up at seven o’clock this morning feeling completely overwhelmed. My book signing is scheduled for today. I’m gripped with excitement and my nerves are raging, but in a good way. I’m in a new place in my life and the journey that got me here has not always been easy. Soon, all eyes and lips will be on me, even when I’m not in the room. My first book is about to face the world and all of my unknowns, my secrets, my hushed thoughts will be revealed. What will people say? What will they think?

“Calm down, Keya. Don’t get ahead of yourself.” I worked hard on this event, I know it’s going to turn out great. That’s what I have to believe right now because I need all my mental and physical energy to get ready. I’ve already picked out my outfit
As you can read above, this is not the book I wanted to write. I was supposed to be this new person, so different that I myself could not even recognize in the mirror. A new creature in Christ. Hahahaa. Yeah right. To be honest, I’ve had to delete, delete, delete. There’s no sugar coating this book. Living out the fire is HAAARD!! Every day, I’m challenged with how not to let a person, a word, or a look knock me off my game.

Just the other day, I was told that someone spoke ill of me. I wanted to confront the person and it wasn’t going to be pretty. I’m talking about earrings and heels coming off mad. But I was able to calm down, ‘cause I’m out the fire. I just wrote a book telling the world that I am no longer the person I used to be. I’m not supposed to pop off every time a person comes at me wrong.

“Huh? I’m not? So, I gotta be transformed and let people handle me any kind of way. Okay, I can do this. But, God, um’ma need your help. Heelllooo. God, you hear me? I seriously need your help. Cause I’ve changed, but I ain’t no nun.” Funny, I don’t hear God answering me. Does that mean I’m going to have to go at this
Now I have to resist those ways, be humble. How in the world am I going to do that? With God? Yes, but I’m still human, and sometimes I don’t always pass every test. I don’t always feel His help when I most need it.

Honey, it’s hard out the fire, but I gotta figure this thing out. I’m still trying to get use to giving all my problems to God. Then the second part of that is to try my best to leave them there. Now, I said I try. I didn’t say I always succeed. God, are you answering yet? Still no answer. Okay, well let me continue.

Inside this new born again life, I have to learn how to deal with people. Now you know that’s a hard one. I have to put old demons to rest. I’m talking about this temper of mine that I’m still having a problem with. Sometimes I have to stop and take a look at the man in the mirror to make sure that I’m not making this walk harder than it has to be. All these problems seems to want to hang around after the fire has