Personal Narrative: My Pursuit Of Mental Illness

Beginning around the seventh grade, my mental health began to decline. There was no direct rhyme or reason as to why I was not happy. I would sit alone and consider all of the “what-ifs” of life and essentially think myself into oblivion because all I could see in life were the negatives. I began to push all of my friends away and I attempted to isolate myself. My mentality truly became a problem when I began to to look at myself with an extremely negative image.
The day I realized I was tired of being unhappy was during the first few months of my sophomore year. I walked past a mirror and noticed I could physically see the depression in my face. I had dark circles under my eyes and it seemed as though i had a cloud of gloat surrounding me. As I looked in the mirror, I became aware that i was tired of negative vibrations constantly consuming my mind. From that day forward, I set out to find happiness.
However I could not find it. I found distractions. I played a variety of sports, I picked up a few hobbies, and even tried hanging out with friends more often in order to distract myself from my true feelings. But this all changed after a year of constant distractions. I was listening to the man named Scott Mescudi, more formally known as Kid Cudi, and he said “I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know, everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold.” As soon I heard that a light bulb turned on in my head. I came to the realization that the key to happiness was to focus on the positive in life and to always keep moving forward because at the end of the day life moves on and so should we. Hanging on to the toxic and negatives things in our life is the number one way to be unhappy and constantly drag us down. When I first started listening to this song I really felt like I could relate to the words he was saying, and I recommend this to anyone going through a hard time in their