Struggle in life

A major flaw in my personality as a whole, deals with having very low tolerance levels. Patience does not come naturally to me, and as a result it is difficult to easily manage my self-control while collaborating with others. Therefore, as my sister entered her teenage years and I was growing out of them, she was not a helpful factor to my problem. She is an expert at knowing how to push my buttons and striking rushe of annoyance and frustration from me faster than I thought to be possible from anyone. Although we are siblings, our personalities and beliefs completely differ from one another; therefore, opportunities for easy agreement between us tend to be practically impossible. Before, I had a difficult time accepting defeat and being proven wrong, so instead of attempting to reach a compromise we would only continue the argument and create tension between us. Although association with my younger sister was a strong challenge for me, it built on my ability to have control over myself and see things with more reason. Eventually, I learned that there are no specific instructions for being a mom and knowing how to respond during the times my sister and I argued, so I knew I had to step up and be a leader for the improved relationship of my family. Consequently, my point of view significantly changed from seeing situations coming from a teenagers perspective, to seeing them from a mother's perspective. The hardship and stress she encountered whenever my sister and I didn't get along made me feel very disappointed in myself, and that's when I realized that at one point in my life I was the same way, so I had to improve myself for the sake of my moms well-being. With time, by listening to my sister, I began to better comprehend the reasons for my sibling's actions and be a true role model for her so she could follow my lead. I learned to enjoy the challenges she proposed for me because it helped me practice on my self-control and patience that I needed to be a better sister and leader. By being the oldest, I knew she looked up to me and mimicked my actions; therefore, instead of attempting to surpass her, I dropped my guard and worked on finding ways that we could both relate to and agree upon. For example, whenever she attempted to create a negative spark in me, I worked on calmly settling it down and avoid anything that would encourage her to behave inappropriately. My mom is the person we spend time with for the longest time during the day and she already deals with every problem at home, so it is also my responsibilty to help her by not creating problems between my sister and I. However, being a leader in my home was not about being in control and forcing the rules on to my younger sibling, but actually the opposite. My role as the older sister implies that I help with the understanding of the already set rules and making a simpler way to follow them. This learning process continued to be difficult for me to handle, and to this point it still continues to be an issue, but the knowledge I received from my mother's view motivates me to improve my actions and become a stronger leader in my household. Although it's a challenge to place my stubborn and argumentative qualities to the side, the gratitude I receive from both my parents and the improved relationship between my sister and I are definitely well worth the struggle.