The Influence Of Human Conditioning

Imagine something. Imagine being told by numerous doctors and nurses that “you are fine” or “you’re just de-conditioned” repeatedly. However, you know deep inside your heart you are more than just de-conditioned. For three months in seventh grade I didn’t attend school. I didn’t see my friends. I could barely get myself up and out of bed for more than a couple minutes at a time. I worked to be able to go back. Practicing things as simple as standing up or walking. Things were never back to “normal” so they decided to tilt table test me. This tilt table changed who I was and how I thought about live and experience. On a snow white January morning, my parents and I made our way to Children’s hospital in Denver. After arriving mid-morning my parents got lunch. However, I wasn’t
I had sticky patches with wires covering the majority of my body. Nurses explained how a total of five nurses and doctors would be in the room with me during the test. One at a computer to my right would be asking me questions about how I feel every five minutes. Now that everything was set up and we all had an understanding of what would be happening they started the testing process. I was asked the questions and that nurse marked down my answers, I felt “normal.” I was nauseous, a little dizzy but nothing too abnormal to my recent experiences. The first fifteen minutes were pretty boring, I laid still. The five nurses and doctors around me watched the screens or were on their phones playing games or texting. Talking a lot could’ve negatively affected their data so we had to be silent with the exception of the questioning. Fifteen minutes after the test was started they tilted the table up to an almost standing positon. At first this felt a little awkward cause you’re not actually standing by yourself but leaning at a weird