Do you ever feel like you’re not good enough? Do you ever feel emotionally numb? Are things losing their interest? Well you might be one of the “lucky” millions who have either anxiety or depression. Anxiety and depression affect your life in every way. Different things trigger these sudden feelings and when you get into them you could be lost for days. Here are things that triggered it for me, some of the things that changed in my life and how I would react to try to feel better. These things can be completely random for some people but these are the things that started it.
Normally it is a traumatic event for a person that causes the depression, for me it was the divorce of my parents. When this happened I felt like I was sinking into a big hole. After this I felt like I was emotionally incapable of anything. I found it hard to care about anything such as my school work my friends and my family. For school I didn’t feel like I had to do the homework and I would do very bad in my classes. None of my classes interested me enough even to try. At school I would pretend to pay attention for my parents because it was expected of me to do so. Eventually my grades were dropping and I was almost failing out of school. My depression also affected more than just my school work at school; it also affected my relationships with my friends.
My friends have always been the neighborhood kids and we all grew up together and did everything together. When I first became depressed I didn’t want to see any or my friends or do anything all day. I would sit inside my house and watch TV. When I would be at school I would keep to myself and not pay much attention to people in my class and my grade. As time went on I became more social with the other people in my class but my anxiety would make it very hard for me to make friends. I would talk to people for the first time I would be very awkward because I would not know what to say. Things with my friends