Childbirth-Personal Narrative

As time passed the waves picked up. They became extremely intense.around five in the morning I hit the wallI knew I knew I would at some point.I felt as if I was dying, I knew I was dying. My midwife leaned in close brushing hair from my face and smiled with a nod softly saying “ You can do this Julia, you're almost there”
I wanted to cry I wanted to let something out but the pain was off a scale of tears and all I could do was scream. I felt weak and and as if my life was draining out of me. I lost my strength to stand,to bounce on a ball or lean against a shower wall.I laid down as if giving up, surrendering my body and strength. I so badly wanted to say I can’t or I want the epidural but I never did. I began grasping at everything
most women in America will hear this word and cringe. Most women enter childbirth uneducated about the real process, the reason we have contractions. They will lay on a bed legs up and may try to go natural but always take the epidural in the end. When I would talk to mothers about birth they only spoke of 3 things. Time, Pain and trauma. It was never a beautiful story, there were never smiles. It was a memory they prefered not to remember. I did my reading, I discovered Ina May Gaskin The Mother of all Midwives and I knew birth was something sacred, beautiful, and could be something one would want to remember forever. I discovered little things about birth like how lying on one's back legs bent actually made birth harder and longer as your pelvis is tilted in this position and smaller. I discovered Epidurals lead to pitocin which then leads to more epidurals and then causing this domino effect endangering baby. I discovered Contractions are used as a guide and if we listen to our bodies we can move into our perfect labor. whether that be on all fours in a birthing pool, or squatting with your arms wrapped about your husband's neck. I discovered so much and had so much to share and wanted to inspire and guide mothers through a gentle and memorable birth, because it is possible,and it can be enjoyed. three babies later I discovered an amazing place called the Birth Art International where they believe we are animals and our bodies are created to birth