June 10th and look it’s a girl. I listened and did everything as expected and aimed to please from the start. 5 years old what does that age make you think of? Young and naive? …show more content…
She had all the love and I had nothing. Then I was hit. Depression. I was only five and already thinking about killing myself. Just wanting to get away from it all.
Help. I would cry myself to sleep. But my calls were not heard. My parents were never home. My mom partying and my dad working. I don’t even remember seeing them until age seven. Where were you Mom? Dad?
I kept telling myself your going to have a good life in the future and every day that goes by I started to doubt that statement. I could not sleep because my mom was partying and the music was so loud. Dad would be so mad mom wouldn’t let us sleep before school and would yell at them to turn it down, but they never did . I would wake up at night and my dad was yelling at my mom because she was cheating on him. Age six my parents were having a fight again.
I remember it so vividly and and yet my sister has no memory of it what so ever. It was in the kitchen, I don’t remember what the fight was about. So much screaming. My mom grabbed a knife and saying she would kill herself. No. Please don’t do this. At that moment I just felt tears streaming down my face as I was yelling at her, ”Mommy please don’t do it!” And she stabbed herself in the arm. I loved her so much. Mom please