Essay On C. S. Lewis 'A Grief Observed'

In A Grief Observed, by C.S. Lewis, I was profoundly affected by the spiral of emotion that Lewis was afflicted with after the loss of H. Not only is C.S. Lewis angry at god, but over the course of the book he comes to terms with his pain. That god has not forsaken him and is not a cruel being, but instead has knocked down his house of cards showing him who he really is. This eye-opening book really observes grief down to its darkest moment. Something that we rarely get the chance to peak into in our lives. Lewis starts the book with the statement, “Where is God?” in the first chapter; and ends the book with “I am at peace with God”. A transition that truly shows Lewis’ heart for the Lord, even in his time of peril. In my personal experience with grief, I have felt and seen a lot of the same anger towards God. When our close family friends lost their daughter, I saw their family turn towards God with astounding amounts of resentment and anger. How could God dare
Lewis begins to understand God, and his grief a little better. He starts to realize that his own mind and ways are flawed not God’s. Lewis comes to the conclusion that, “If there is a good God, then these tortures are necessary. For no even moderately good Being could possibly inflict or permit them if they weren’t”. If God is not good, then God does not exist. For any torture that occurs, occurs for the betterment of God’s children. Without these tortures we could not experience his wholesome love. If the tortures mean nothing, then there must be no God at all. The gracious God that we have, would not inflict pain on us with no reason behind it. I have to believe, if I believe in God, that there is a reason behind all of this. If it is all meaningless then there can be no God, because that would defeat the very purpose of God. We can never experience the love that God has for us in full, until we have experienced suffering in our own lives. It is the suffering that makes His love so