In the summer of 2014, I went on a youth missions trip with my youth group, Mpact, to San Antonio, Texas. For awhile leading up to that, the devil tortured me with the idea that God didn’t love me like He did everyone else. I felt trapped in the thought that there was so much pressure on me to be better for God to love me and I wasn’t very confident in myself. When I would worship, I would pray that I would have a wonderful experience with God. “God, please let me feel your love. I want so much to have an amazing experience with You! Do You love me? Do You even want me as part of your family? I’m so lost and I don’t know what it is I’m doing wrong. Tell me what I’m doing wrong …show more content…
I didn’t know what to expect and honestly I didn’t expect what I got. It was two nights before we were going to leave to go home. The trip had been amazing and very unexpected. We went to a church service at Agora ministries church, located in a pretty rough part of San Antonio, after a really long day at the apartment complex we worked at. That day we held a sports camp for all of the kids that lived in that apartment complex and it was really fun! We played kickball, soccer, football, water balloons, and sang songs with all of the kids! That night, my team performed a human video. Human video are kind of like plays except with music and there normally isn’t any talking. The room wasn’t very large, but it was big enough to fit all 2-3 hundred kids and leaders (from different churches across the states). It was a dark room, but very colorful and I remember that it had a disco ball at the center of it. For the human video we were supposed to denim jeans and black T-shirts with our shirts tucked (which was very uncomfortable with me ). The human video was about how much God loves us and how He died on the cross to save this man who raped women. It showed Jesus dying on the cross and inviting that man into his family even though he