Kille Sam Monologue

I never would have guessed that I'd start my summer by burying my best friend. I guess your life really can change in the blink of an eye but here I am, getting ready for a funeral I never thought I would have to attend. I'll never forget that night. His mom called me to deliver the terrible news screaming and crying. Her baby crashed into tree on the side of the road and was dead. I immediately rushed to the scene to find his lifeless body being pulled out of his destroyed vehicle like a rag doll. The doctor said he died instantly and didn't suffer, but that didn't help to make me feel any better. His mom said he was on his way to see me which only makes the grieving process worse. Honestly, I can't help but to blame myself. I sent the text that
I guess that's why we were the perfect match. He pushed me beyond my comfort zone and I was always there to reign him in whenever he crossed a line. But this time was different, I wasn't there to protect him. He took a risk and hit a low he couldn't bounce back from, and it was all my fault. I guess only the good die young. June 17, 2015 I feel like he's still here. It's so hard for me to believe he's really gone. I expect his name to light up on my phone or for him to come knocking on my door any second now. The sad truth is: yesterday was the very last time I will ever see Sam. He was my best friend, my rock, and he meant the world to me. We've been inseparable ever since kindergarten and now I have to live without him. We were all each other ever needed. We told each other everything, went everywhere together, and I'm the only one he allowed to call him "Sammy". Wherever I was, you can bet that Sam wasn't too far behind and vise versa. We were so much alike, our moms used to joke about us being the same person. Now there's only one of us. He was my better half and all of a sudden he was ripped away from me before I even had the chance to say