Personal Narrative: Acedia And Me

Don't wait until you can do it perfectly, or exactly, just do something. That's is the polar opposite of my usual train of thought.
Our thoughts are powerful. It's no wonder Kathleen Norris, in her newest book Acedia and Me notes that the seven deadly sins used to be called the eight bad (or tempting, perhaps) thoughts. The earliest Christians who wrote about their lives spoke often of how to overcome these thoughts. Their writings describe internal struggle, and what treasure they had found in learning to marshall their thought-life toward God.
Today I was feeling very 'beaten' by a sinus infection, I was challenged to think about what I want to be, instead of what I am not. Ponder that for a moment. The leader reminded us we need more time to
think than we usually allow ourselves. "So sit in your chair, take deep, wonderful breaths, and think," she invited.
I thought of all things I want to be, and it was incredible to note the amount of energy that simply flooded through me when I stopped focusing on what I wasn't (feeling well, to start with) and started thinking about what I want (to be healthy, to start with).
I honestly felt more awake, less sick, more hopeful.
While we don't control which thoughts float in and out of our consciousness, we do control which ones we allow to live there. That, I think, is where our power comes in. There is, quite simply, no way to send those thoughts packing without the power of Intuition and Instinct.
It's a pretty frightening time in our nation's economic history. All around us, people are losing their jobs, at least here in developing economies affected by inflation. Older folks are putting off retirement out of necessity. Younger ones feel insecure. The election has brought out the usual nasty rhetoric. There is not a lot of hope amongst the masses.
I could focus on that. Or I could remember the value of Gratitude- 'Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable -- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy -- think about these things.' Just count your
Blessings
How about this? From now on, I pray only positive. Instead of what I don't want, I will ask for what I do. Instead of noticing the failures, the stupidity, the negative, I'll give thanks for those things that lead me to my goal. A free country (isn't it awesome that we can have dialogs in public?); a prosperous community (isn't it so cool that we all have food on our table and there are so many generous people sharing their wealth?); a bright future (God promises when we pray he'll give us good things - bread, not stones).
Ok, it might sound corny to you. Still, why not? What is there, really, to lose? After all, anything worth doing is worth doing poorly!