Personal Narrative Being Unchained

Unchained: A Mental Break From Alcoholism

It was a cold November night back in 2009 when I became unchained from alcohol. I will never forget the desperation I felt that night. Sadly, the pain I caused people came crashing down like waves, filling my head with disappointment. The relationships I had with people, torn like an old pair of jeans, perhaps too far gone to repair. Freedom is what I longed for. I didn’t want to live bound tightly to these demons anymore. All I really yearned for was for those voices that took control of my head to stop providing me with excuses as to why I could drink. By voices, I mean, I felt as though good and evil where sharing space in my head, manipulating me, pulling me back and forth between freedom
Not to be called a fond memory, but a true-life lesson. I will never forget the night that I lay in bed, sweating profusely, trembling taking control of my whole body. That night I believe the devil came to pull my chains down to him for good. He did not win that battle! I did! In the last five years, I have become stronger in every aspect of my life. I am of course still shy, but not even close to how I was. I don’t miss opportunities to do whatever it is that I want. Now I say to others, in my head, of course, “If you don’t like the way I look, then don’t look.” It is such a wonderful way to feel. I love not missing out on life. Thankfully, self-care has become a top priority. I’m not saying I won’t throw on a hat to run to the store, but now I do it with confidence. I have more pride in myself to do what I can to look and feel good about myself. My self-esteem is better. I am who I am. I am what the Lord made me to be. He makes no mistakes, so I can no longer question him. I have been built up, opened up and set free to accept myself as I am. I have a purpose to achieve, and I can now accomplish things with pride and perseverance. Above all, reliability to others has made things all come together. I have some of the greatest relationships