Personal Narrative: Drinking Doesn T Undue Stress

Again you don’t have to engage with this right now but I don’t want not knowing what I’m thinking to cause any undue stress. I’m thinking about how my drinking continually negatively impacts you. I’m thinking about how it’s going to destroy our relationship if it hasn’t already. I’m wondering what I can say and do to regain your trust. I’m wondering if the tables were turned If I would forgive. I’m wondering if it’s fair to try to convince you to give me another chance.

It’s been a terrible two days, I wanted to check in, see how your final week was going, see how you were holding up, be there for you. But what could I really say, at this point “I’m sorry” seems at best, insincere and at worst, borderline insulting.

There is a lot more
to talk about but if you want to continue this, I’ll just say now that I will take more concrete steps to fix this problem as opposed to just promising it won’t happen again. I’ll stop drinking hard alcohol, I’ll stop drinking at all when we go out, I’ll stop all drinking if that's what it takes.

I am deeply disappointed in myself for not being a better support during this stressful time and even though we said we’d talk on Thursday, I’d really like to hear more about your week, and why things not going well.