Personal Narrative: How Trauma Changed My Life

Trauma: a very difficult or unpleasant experience that causes someone to have mental or emotional problems usually for a long time. Have you ever experienced a trauma? I made it nearly nineteen years without enduring a traumatic experience. Yes, an affair leading into a divorce is considered a trauma. When the man I grew up idolizing left my family for a twenty-year-old girl, it left me mentally and emotionally unstable. As many times as my parents told me that their problems were their problems and that they shouldn’t affect me; this affected me. My life before the affair was great and carefree, however, now I’m not sure that I’ll ever get back there. It is literally as if I lived a different life before the trauma.
My mom and dad divorced when I was just a baby. Although I have always loved my real daddy, I also had an amazing step-daddy. My mom brought Brandon into
I have always been trusting and naïve in every sort of relationship. Now I find myself questioning everyone’s motives. I have a faithful boyfriend who has stood beside me through all of this, and yet I can’t find it in myself to trust him. Not only do I have severe trust issues now, I also have severe anxiety and some depression. I worry about my mom and what comes next for us continuously. I am hurt; I am angry; I am sad; and, I am broken. I don’t even recognize the girl I have become, or the life I am living.
Obviously my life has been changed. Before this traumatic experience I thought I had everything figured out, and now I am just figuring out how to get by day by day. I thought I was strong, and now I feel so weak. I have learned through this experience never to put all of my trust and heart into someone because they will fail me. The only one who will never fail me is my God. Through all of the stress and heartache, I know the Lord will bring me peace again after this storm. I believe in His perfect timing and in His perfect way, my mom and I will be okay