Hi dad, I have wanted to write to you for a while, but I haven’t been sure how to write what I want to say. You will always be an important person in my life. Whatever happens between us, I now know you will love mum and I always. I have been thinking about this for a long time now, in fact I’ve been thinking about it since you left.
There are few things that constantly replayed in my head and the words I spoke to you are by far the worst I have ever uttered. Dad I want you to know that put simply I love you.
Only now that I know that I could lose you makes me realise how wrong those words were. I was so happy that day. I remember how excited I was to see you at my cricket trials. It was basically everything I have ever dreamed of. A father that came and supported me even just watch and feel proud of me for even a split second.
That day I could see the happiness in your fface, I imagined you felt the same as I did. The real reason crushed me, knowing once again that you were going to leave us. Rage built up inside me I was already past the feeling of sadness all I was consumed by was anger. The moment the words left my mouth I wanted to take them back. As soon as I parted my lips I knew I should have kept them closed, but the words had to be said there was truth in the words but no meaning. As hurt as I was I could never mean those words dad. I never wanted you to go what troubles me is that I knew that you did. I knew you loved your job, but I thought you might love us more to stay.
When I was younger it didn’t bother me as much. Yet now things are changing and so am I. I am growing up and I just wanted you to be around like every other father. Now I know everything you do, all your hard work is for us. I want you to know that I will always appreciate what you do for mum and I to have good life.
Your work is hard and has proven to be dangerous. But I know that you are equally as strong and will make it through this. I am worried dad and I know