What Makes Your Own Character Leave?
What do you do when the people you feel have shared almost your own character leave? When the people you have spent your life with move on to start a new chapter of their lives and you cannot go with them. These are the questions I faced when my two older brothers left for college my junior year of high school. I have three brothers; two are two years older than and one is four years younger than me. I should start off by saying being sister has molded me in her part of my life. My brothers have been life long playmates, protectors, and best friends from the time I was born. You know how when you think back on important parts of your life and you ask yourself who was with me? Well, almost every time I ask myself that question the answer is
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I was filled with jealousy, sadness, and a little happiness. I was jealous they got to leave while I had to stay. I was sad because the two people I spent most of life with were leaving to live somewhere else, but I was happy because I knew they deserved it. They deserved to go off and live their new lives in college. No matter how mad I was, I still knew they deserved it and they deserved to be happy. I wished the best for them even though I felt so jealousy that I was left behind. I hated that they got to go out and meet new people while I was stuck at the same high school for two more years. I could not see the bigger picture. I could see that in two years I would join them, all I the horrible feeling of everyone changing while I had to stay the same. It was like being left behind and that thought had always terrified me. Nonetheless, my brother went off to college leaving me behind. I somehow survived even though leading Up to their departure I thought I would not. While they were gone the own thing that kept me from drowning in my own self pity was thinking about the future. I spent all my time daydreaming about the day I would leave as they did. I know you are supposed to live in the now but I did not. The constant thought of the future was like the light at the end of the tunnel for
I was filled with jealousy, sadness, and a little happiness. I was jealous they got to leave while I had to stay. I was sad because the two people I spent most of life with were leaving to live somewhere else, but I was happy because I knew they deserved it. They deserved to go off and live their new lives in college. No matter how mad I was, I still knew they deserved it and they deserved to be happy. I wished the best for them even though I felt so jealousy that I was left behind. I hated that they got to go out and meet new people while I was stuck at the same high school for two more years. I could not see the bigger picture. I could see that in two years I would join them, all I the horrible feeling of everyone changing while I had to stay the same. It was like being left behind and that thought had always terrified me. Nonetheless, my brother went off to college leaving me behind. I somehow survived even though leading Up to their departure I thought I would not. While they were gone the own thing that kept me from drowning in my own self pity was thinking about the future. I spent all my time daydreaming about the day I would leave as they did. I know you are supposed to live in the now but I did not. The constant thought of the future was like the light at the end of the tunnel for