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He begins by separating himself into two distinct personalities: Borges, a writer who appears to the other persona as “vain” and an “actor,” and I, the person who is slowly becoming a shadow of his former self in his attempt to bolster the Borges character (Borges 157). The I, unlike Keegan, however, understands why he is giving away most of his being to Borges. He only remains alive so that Borges may write and Borges’s writing is what “justifies” him (Borges 157). This understanding is a double edged sword. A cognitive dissonance is dealt with, but this understanding has caused him to become robotic because he knows that “these pages cannot save [him]” (Borges 157). He has “tried to free himself from [Borges],” but because he cannot recognize himself, it has become impossible to disentangle the two characters (Borges 158). His life is no longer his, and that understanding has made him a hollow, lifeless being who “walk[s] through the streets...mechanically” (Borges