02/07/2014
Journal Entry 5
Desired Outcomes
Value
Maintain a 3.0 GPA (B grade or higher)
Re-gain academic self-confidence, parents also promised to financially support me
Learn more effective study strategy skills
Will help improve academic success
Get my driver’s license
Will be able to save time getting to school which I can use more effectively in other ways
Desired Experiences
Value
Take leadership role in group projects
Will challenge me to push myself in positive ways outside of my comfort zone, since I usually sit back and wait for others to take charge or tell me what I need to do.
Academic confidence/success
I did poorly in school at Oregon and since then I have felt inadequate. If I can push myself to do well in school I believe I will gain that confidence back.
Personal confidence
For a lot of my life I have felt introverted and quiet. I don’t like attention called onto me. Taking time off after Oregon helped me to realize that much of that wasn’t because I was a shy person- it was because I was holding myself back from who I want to be due to a lack of personal self-confidence. This semester I have chosen to take a vocal class in which I will have to perform in front of other- a thought that quite frightens me actually. But singing is something that I like to do when I am alone, so I thought maybe singing in front of other would be a good challenge for me and help me to gain that confidence.
The value I place on being successful in college is 9. My expectation of being a success in college is probably a 7 right now. Multiplied together, this gives me an achievement motivation score of 63. I want to be successful because I feel college is really the only significant next step towards bringing me to where I want to be. Unfortunately I rated my expectation of success so low because I lack the self-confidence to feel like I will be able to make it happen. I’ve failed so many times in the past and I fear that I