Its too hard for young girl to set alone and think of the past she passed through a lot of things and the most worst thing was a hard disease which is asthma. She had hard time with this disease and feeling ache towards what she is feeling. Too many people loved her and not normal people, It’s her father !! he used to take a big responsibility of her, he used to give her all the attention and intention and she was sophisticated. Her father never forgot her he used to always come in the hard circumstances and bad eliminations. She used to sleep with her asthma and wake up with her asthma…
“When im going to be settled free from this illness?” I think she always contemplating with that theory.
She used to feel lonely sometimes, she suffered from anxiety and paranoid she wasn’t feeling her self
Well.
When her father came up to her room after he finished his work, she started telling him all what made her feel bad this afternoon and how much time passed slowly. He gave her many options ,he also told her that Emma might read to her but she didn’t accept and she shook her head which means NO. she liked his sister just of what he said about his sister. She always wanted peace but on the other side she is afraid and panicked. She had no choice just to sit down and pray to be better. Father is taking her the first step even when she don’t see the whole staircase . in her deepest darkest moments what she really got through is praying. Sometimes her prayer was “help me” and sometimes her prayer was “thank you”. What she discovered is that intimate and connection and communication with her father well always get her thorough. Because she know her support and her help are just a prayer away. The time feels lonely is the time she most need to be by her self. She torched the dying, the poor, the lonely and the unwanted according to her graces she had received and let her know not