Expressing Feelings

What do you feel about that guy? Don't be lazy and make it as an inspiration to write your feelings about that particular guy. Express your feelings through writing! I know there’s a part of me that really loves to write stories or to share my thoughts and feelings. And because of my laziness, I haven’t written anything yet. And to start this thing, I’ll ignore or better erase my laziness first, so here it goes. Well, there’s this guy that I really don’t know my feelings about him. Do I love him or am I just confused because he’s the only one who accepts who I really am. I totally love this guy and I know it but I don’t know if he is the one.
Dude I miss him so much. I always think of him. If possible, every second I think of him. I always spaced out thinking those happy and sad memories of ours. I want to hug him or stare at him always, and be with him always! Dude, I don’t know where to start and he already know all of this; I know it because I always say this things to him over and over again. I had loved him with all my heart. Dude, I want him to be mine ONLY. I hate sharing. Every time we became ok, I can’t help thinking about his crimes and it always makes me cry. Why? Why does he keep doing those things again and again? What’s wrong with me? Am I not enough? Does he really love me? Well, I think this has to stop already. Stop means no more! Not loving me back is the worst feeling I had ever felt. Even if he had loved me, he lost his sparks. He turned his back on me and left me crying alone in the dark. Not even looking back to check if I’m ok or did I stop crying. I always feel used by him but I am super blind by his so-called love. That’s what you called Love is Blind. It is very obvious on what he’s doing to me but I keep on insisting that he really does love me. But the truth is, he don’t. He always think of another girl when we’re talking or even if we’re together and I don’t want to be specific about them because they’re too many. He cared