Personal Narrative
Personal Narrative
I was the second and final child born into the family before my parents got divorced when I was five. As the baby I wish I could say that I was treated that way, but I was not. I was the girl that reminded my father of my mother and was frequently ignored, while my brother was the pride and joy and could do no wrong. This being said it played a big part in my neuroticism personality trait as a young child. I was very quiet and withdrawn from my family and considered a loner. In my world as a young child my grandparents were my best friends and nothing else mattered because they were the only ones that made me feel loved.
As I grew into my adolescent years my world and personality changed. Although the treatment from my …show more content…
father had not changed, the way I dealt with it did. I wanted to hide the way I was feeling inside because I did not want anybody to know that I was not feeling like I was good enough because I never thought I had the acceptance from my father. I started sticking up for myself, and started caring for the people around me no matter how I was feeling, making sure that nobody around me would feel the feelings that I was dealing with deep inside. In doing this I went from coming across as withdrawn to coming across as approachable, and gaining confidence in not only myself but also in what I was doing.
This was going well for a while until I was eighteen and found myself pregnant. They say where there is growth and movement forward that there is the possibility of moving backward. Moving backward is what I did, the day I told my father I was pregnant with my son my father told my step-sisters that I no longer existed that I had died. I was moved into a home for unwed moms. Although, most people say that their life begins the day they were born, my life began the day I went into this home. The woman that ran the house made me feel like I was somebody and that the feelings I had mattered. I knew then that I wanted to go back to school and get in the position to help others the way this woman helped me. Being a teenage mom and having to raise my child and work I knew at this time it was impossible for me to go back to school that I had to make sure that I was there for my son. With this knew found unconditional love I knew that I would never make my children feel the way I did growing up no matter how tired I was. This was not an easy task as I was always being told that what I was doing was wrong and that I was a horrible parent. This took a toll on my personality and made me withdrawn all over again. I started thinking about different ways to take my life because I seemed to be more of a burden to my child that a parent the way my father and his new wife were talking about me.
One year and nine months later I was the proud mom of boy number two. Although the days got longer and the work got harder there was so much unconditional love between the three of us that I knew that no matter what I went through that we would be together forever. There never seems to be enough time in the day to make sure that I was making enough money to make sure that my children wanted for nothing. So I decided I was going to grow pot and just start selling it just so that I could make sure that my bills were taken care of. I just want to make sure that I can get the little extras that my children wanted. So seeing the money come in I thought wow, with the money coming in the way it is I have no worries. I am not only making sure that all my bills are paid but also I am making enough money to make sure that my boys have everything they want and need. My brother found out what I was doing and told my father what was going on in my house and they had their version of an intervention. I lost my apartment and my children, and living in my car in the parking lot of the neighborhood Walmart. I had nothing in my life, no family, no friends, it was all gone by stupid decisions I had made in my life.
I am now at the young adult stage of my life and still fixing all the errors that I have made while growing up. I have been working and taking care of my children and trying to get my life back on track to where I want it to be. I was living in a three bedroom house and newly married. I am finding myself working two jobs and constantly cooking and doing laundry while my husband was gone all the time driving a tow truck. My front door seemed to never close and there was always somebody there needing a hot meal and somewhere to take a nap since my husband worked for a tow yard and our house was two block away from the yard. The people we were renting the house from did not understand a tow truck drivers schedule and why these drivers were coming in and out all the time. I lost my house and ended up living in the middle of nowhere in a town called Blythe where I met my manager and friend Debbie. We first moved there with the intent of the four of us living there and because of rent being so cheap we would be able to save up money and get another place that we could call home again. My husband left saying that he could not find work where we were at and stayed working in the town where we had just moved from. It started off that he came down every weekend and then it was every other weekend and then he stopped coming out because of some excuse that he could not make it because of something that had to do with work. So I found myself not only living out in the middle of nowhere but also wishing I had made some different choices in my
life.
I am back in what I consider civilization where I am finishing up my Associates degree and starting up on my bachelor’s degree. I feel that going through everything that I have gone through played a big role not only in the person that I am today but also in the personality that I have today. There are so many things that I have accomplished because I never gave up on myself knowing that one day I would be able to achieve the goals that I want. So I take things day-by-day making sure that I do not get overwhelmed breaking each goal down to what I need to get done for the day that will get me one day closer to my goals.
References:
McAdams, D. P. (2009). The Person (5th ed.). Danvers, Massachusetts: John WIley & Sons, Inc..
I was the second and final child born into the family before my parents got divorced when I was five. As the baby I wish I could say that I was treated that way, but I was not. I was the girl that reminded my father of my mother and was frequently ignored, while my brother was the pride and joy and could do no wrong. This being said it played a big part in my neuroticism personality trait as a young child. I was very quiet and withdrawn from my family and considered a loner. In my world as a young child my grandparents were my best friends and nothing else mattered because they were the only ones that made me feel loved.
As I grew into my adolescent years my world and personality changed. Although the treatment from my …show more content…
father had not changed, the way I dealt with it did. I wanted to hide the way I was feeling inside because I did not want anybody to know that I was not feeling like I was good enough because I never thought I had the acceptance from my father. I started sticking up for myself, and started caring for the people around me no matter how I was feeling, making sure that nobody around me would feel the feelings that I was dealing with deep inside. In doing this I went from coming across as withdrawn to coming across as approachable, and gaining confidence in not only myself but also in what I was doing.
This was going well for a while until I was eighteen and found myself pregnant. They say where there is growth and movement forward that there is the possibility of moving backward. Moving backward is what I did, the day I told my father I was pregnant with my son my father told my step-sisters that I no longer existed that I had died. I was moved into a home for unwed moms. Although, most people say that their life begins the day they were born, my life began the day I went into this home. The woman that ran the house made me feel like I was somebody and that the feelings I had mattered. I knew then that I wanted to go back to school and get in the position to help others the way this woman helped me. Being a teenage mom and having to raise my child and work I knew at this time it was impossible for me to go back to school that I had to make sure that I was there for my son. With this knew found unconditional love I knew that I would never make my children feel the way I did growing up no matter how tired I was. This was not an easy task as I was always being told that what I was doing was wrong and that I was a horrible parent. This took a toll on my personality and made me withdrawn all over again. I started thinking about different ways to take my life because I seemed to be more of a burden to my child that a parent the way my father and his new wife were talking about me.
One year and nine months later I was the proud mom of boy number two. Although the days got longer and the work got harder there was so much unconditional love between the three of us that I knew that no matter what I went through that we would be together forever. There never seems to be enough time in the day to make sure that I was making enough money to make sure that my children wanted for nothing. So I decided I was going to grow pot and just start selling it just so that I could make sure that my bills were taken care of. I just want to make sure that I can get the little extras that my children wanted. So seeing the money come in I thought wow, with the money coming in the way it is I have no worries. I am not only making sure that all my bills are paid but also I am making enough money to make sure that my boys have everything they want and need. My brother found out what I was doing and told my father what was going on in my house and they had their version of an intervention. I lost my apartment and my children, and living in my car in the parking lot of the neighborhood Walmart. I had nothing in my life, no family, no friends, it was all gone by stupid decisions I had made in my life.
I am now at the young adult stage of my life and still fixing all the errors that I have made while growing up. I have been working and taking care of my children and trying to get my life back on track to where I want it to be. I was living in a three bedroom house and newly married. I am finding myself working two jobs and constantly cooking and doing laundry while my husband was gone all the time driving a tow truck. My front door seemed to never close and there was always somebody there needing a hot meal and somewhere to take a nap since my husband worked for a tow yard and our house was two block away from the yard. The people we were renting the house from did not understand a tow truck drivers schedule and why these drivers were coming in and out all the time. I lost my house and ended up living in the middle of nowhere in a town called Blythe where I met my manager and friend Debbie. We first moved there with the intent of the four of us living there and because of rent being so cheap we would be able to save up money and get another place that we could call home again. My husband left saying that he could not find work where we were at and stayed working in the town where we had just moved from. It started off that he came down every weekend and then it was every other weekend and then he stopped coming out because of some excuse that he could not make it because of something that had to do with work. So I found myself not only living out in the middle of nowhere but also wishing I had made some different choices in my
life.
I am back in what I consider civilization where I am finishing up my Associates degree and starting up on my bachelor’s degree. I feel that going through everything that I have gone through played a big role not only in the person that I am today but also in the personality that I have today. There are so many things that I have accomplished because I never gave up on myself knowing that one day I would be able to achieve the goals that I want. So I take things day-by-day making sure that I do not get overwhelmed breaking each goal down to what I need to get done for the day that will get me one day closer to my goals.
References:
McAdams, D. P. (2009). The Person (5th ed.). Danvers, Massachusetts: John WIley & Sons, Inc..