Personal Narrative: Am I Going To Do With A Baby

I remember being depressed, crying saying what am I going to do with a baby I didn’t want to be pregnant, but when I heard that first heartbeat for the first time things changed. When I saw my little one on the ultrasound for the first time all I could do was smile and I couldn’t stop smiling! When I felt the first kicks I had fell in love all over again and regained hope. I just knew then and there I couldn’t dare give it all up now.

In the beginning when it all started, I started to give up on everything. The people that I thought cared about me the most started to turn their back on me. My own mother even started to doubt me, which made things even worse. It came to a point where I found myself crying every single night. I gave up my job, I stopped going to school, and I literally didn’t try to do anything. I continuously sat in the house all day long for days because I was at the point where I didn’t even want to go anywhere or be seen. I was at my lowest point and I didn’t have no one to turn to. The people that said they was going to be there for me wasn’t nowhere
to be found.

At this moment I just knew nothing was going to be right for me anymore.
Everything people said to me I ended up taking it in and doing just that. They told me I wasn’t going to finish school because I’ve gotten pregnant. I allowed myself to believe what they was saying to me. I ended up not going to school anymore. For two months straight I missed school and because I gave up my job I had nothing else to do. The morning sickness kicked in and everything got even worse. I was unable to eat anything without throwing up. I found myself becoming dehydrated occasionally. It was times where I ended up in the hospital multiple times. Hyperemesis Gravid arum is what they called it. Rather than gaining weight I was losing it. I lost a maximum of 20 pounds. I honestly didn’t think I was going to make it this far in my pregnancy. I was feeling so bad and couldn’t do much about it, but pray for the
better.

Due to a family altercation I had fallen out with my oldest sister a couple months back. We was the closest two out of all three of my mother kids, nobody couldn’t keep us apart. When she found out I was pregnant she reached out to me and ask me how everything is going. I told her everything that was going on and because she has been through it before she gave me some good advice. I took that advice and started to get myself together. Those things that people spoke to me about and said I wouldn’t amount to stuck with me, all the good and the bad. Those words only caused me to make everything right and prove them wrong. They told me I was going to fail, but with the faith that I have I know I can do anything I put my mind to. I was told I wouldn’t be hired on to any job because I was a liability, but I went out on my own and started to apply. Not even a week later I was called for a job and started working the next week! They told me I wasn’t going to graduate, but with hard work and dedication I just know I will succeed. Not only do I want to finish for my child, but I want to do this for me. I want to show those who doubted me that I made it.

Just when I thought I wasn’t going to get back right, knowing that I have that support from my sister gave me life. I’m now back working at a job that pays way more than the job I was working at before. I am now getting back into school and getting things together so I can graduate on time. Everything I lost I gained back ten times better. From time to time I still get frustrated, but I know things will get even better than what they are. I still have a long ways to go, but I know I will get through everything.