I hope this provided you with a better understanding of what depression really is and how incredibly serious it is. I know Louellen and your dad both struggle with mental illness and …show more content…
The truth is I hated what I was doing and I would have given anything to be able to get up in the morning and start getting my life back on track. To be able to go to Uni and apply myself and to have the energy to exercise and the self-esteem to make friends. When I did manage to do something normal however you never even realised or appreciated it. Every time I cooked us a nice dinner or went out in public for a date, worked out or went to Uni was my equivalent of climbing Mount Everest. That 'person' that you thought you I was, was just my depression. I was inside the whole time fighting to get better for the both of us but when I came to you begging for support, my words fell on deaf ears. I wasn't being lazy, I was physically incapable of doing the things I wanted so desperately to do. The fact is, I wanted to do those things so badly that I wanted to kill myself because I couldn't. I'm not a bad person. I'm the most genuine and compassionate man of conviction that you'll ever meet, I've just been incredibly sick. In retrospect, I should have been in therapy and medicated a long time ago. Now I understand it wouldn't have been a walk in the park for you either, but you have no idea how bad it was for me. My mental health should have been a priority for you. I was worth