to open up, let ourselves to be seen and to believe in ourselves.
I am, personally, struggle with vulnerability, as other people do. I try to be perfect and avoid feelings of shame and fear, so first of all, I do not discuss my emotions with people who I do not know well. But, there is times, when I cannot express my emotions with my husband or his family. One example is, when one of my kids get sick, so I worry about him/her, at the same time I have to make sure the other child gets to dance competition or soccer game, dinner has to be made, house needs to be cleaned, plus my homework has to be done, and I need some time to study for test. At this time, I have many emotions, I feel overwhelmed, I feel scared, I feel upset. However, I do not his family to know this, because I do not want to seems like I am not strong enough, or needy. I also do not share these feelings with my husband in order to protect him. I know he works in
dangerous place for twenty hours straight with no weekends, do not matter if he is sick or not; he does not have time to eat normal food or even sit down and relax. So, he is so much busier than I am, and it will be something extra for him to worry about. The good thing about my husband’s family, they offer their help, so they probably understand what I feel and that I am not perfect and able to handle it all on my own. Another good thing, I can share all my emotions with my closest friends, who knows everything about me and accept me for who I am. Even though, they live far away and cannot help me here, their support is very important. In a future, I might be able to overcome my struggle with vulnerability and open up to more people without worrying being turned down because I am not good enough, or not strong enough. But it will take some time.