Even now, I don't think much has changed. I remember the voice of the priest floating up to the rafters where a fidgeting collection of grade-schoolers sat waiting for their music cues, trying with all of their might to find a way to entertain themselves. I remember the scriptures reading that I, as a child, was to respect and not challenge my elders. The whispers of misogyny, the renouncement of gays, the denial of mental illness, and the ultimately well-intended but ultimately harmful advice that if we just prayed hard enough, then we could wash away all of the things that made God so ashamed of us. As if love was something to be ashamed of, as if the emotions that one had no control of were their fault from the beginning. As if it were sheer impudence to question any of this, and even more so to question any man of the cloth when you were born with a body dissimilar to theirs. A woman, a queer, a depressed psycho: these were all of the things that I was told God hated me for. These things were what I was told that I should hate others for, and while the Holy Bible tells one to love thy neighbor, those who hold it close tend to have an affinity for
Even now, I don't think much has changed. I remember the voice of the priest floating up to the rafters where a fidgeting collection of grade-schoolers sat waiting for their music cues, trying with all of their might to find a way to entertain themselves. I remember the scriptures reading that I, as a child, was to respect and not challenge my elders. The whispers of misogyny, the renouncement of gays, the denial of mental illness, and the ultimately well-intended but ultimately harmful advice that if we just prayed hard enough, then we could wash away all of the things that made God so ashamed of us. As if love was something to be ashamed of, as if the emotions that one had no control of were their fault from the beginning. As if it were sheer impudence to question any of this, and even more so to question any man of the cloth when you were born with a body dissimilar to theirs. A woman, a queer, a depressed psycho: these were all of the things that I was told God hated me for. These things were what I was told that I should hate others for, and while the Holy Bible tells one to love thy neighbor, those who hold it close tend to have an affinity for