to feel more in control, which ends up controlling you.
Cutting often begins as an impulse.
It's not something the person thinks about ahead of time. In the video, "Can You See My Pain," we witness nine individuals inflicting pain, expressing anger, and trying to get control of it.
Our first cutter is a female by the name of Margo. Margo's past history has played a significant role in injuring herself. Her brother sexually abused her at an early age, causing her to feel pain, sadness, and confusion towards other people. Margo would cut in response to these feelings by scratching, picking wounds, and burning her skin.
Jessie, our next cutter, grew up in a family that never gave compliments and very seldom acknowledged her great doings. Therefore, her thoughts of herself were turned into garbage. To her, the sight of blood was a way of realizing she was alive. Her depression drove herself along and brought about feelings of loneliness. Jessie knew she could always walk away, but her feelings of nothing found it hard for her to walk away form this
cutting.
Amanda found it easier to have the physical pain rather then the emotional pain. Growing up, her father knew about her cutting habits. Unfortunately, her father wanted to see what she could handle on her own. Amanda thought if she didn't cut when she was feeling hurt, she would no longer be happy.
At age seventeen, Ashley witnessed an unfortunate event. Her sister was seen cutting her wrists. This caused Ashley to do the same, even without noticing it. Furthermore, Ashley's mother wasn't very close to her children and used a lot of alcohol and drugs.
Desiree was a previous cutter who found support from many family members and counselors. She figured if they liked her, then she could find out who she really was. It took her two years to recover and to this day, still doesn't cut. She advises parents, friends, etc., to listen to each other and provide support. Many cutters are abused sexually or verbally. Just like Margo, Nikki was being sexually abused at home during the night. To her, being abused was the only thing she could do to receive love. Nikki would cut herself until she could get all her pain to go away. Her impulse for cutting was always there, but Nikki believed reaching out and asking for help was in the end, beneficial, even though it seems scary.
Amy was a very educated individual. She attended college and entered medical school. However, just like Jessie and Ashley's family, Amy's family never liked to talk about emotional problems. She was the most organized of all the presented cutters. Bandages, alcohol and razors were stocked to no end. When Amy saw blood, she would stop cutting. Afterwards, she felt horrible because she had caused another scar on her body. Her cutting ended when she realized she wanted her value back.
Jennifer was a mother of one who couldn't stand her body. A past situation with her boyfriend left her with two initials engraved deep within her wrist. Jennifer is a heavy drinker and the scariest thing is that she doesn't remember buying razor blades. When she's in control, her stomach will be the only part she will cut.
Our final self-injurer is a Dominican nun named Pauline. She's been to fourteen different institutes forty-six times, while being abused by staff members. Stopping the injury was difficult for her because she didn't have any goals or futures to look forward to. Pauline believes a person has to stop on his or her own.
Cutting yourself is so pointless. Why cut yourself? What's it going to bring? It's not going to bring happiness. It's just going to damage your exterior. So why cut yourselves? I believe its all an act of attention. People might cut themselves to attract others toward them. I do not and never will see a point to it. It makes me angry because there are real cutters out there who are truly disturbed people, and there are people doing it to just get noticed.
I think self-cutting also changes a person. It destroys the human, which God created. Cutting destroys the human mentally, physically, and emotionally. It also hurts him or her spiritually. There is nothing good about it. Cutting may feel good to some people for a short time, but it hurts them in the long-term. It doesn't solve anything and causes more problems for a person to focus on instead of the original problem.
These people need some serious psychiatric help. I think it is typically people who are in bad situations, or situations they are extremely unhappy with. This is their way to escape. I feel they need someone to talk to and need help. If you're ever depressed, you should just call a hotline, talk with someone you know, or go get any other sort of professional help. Cutting isn't the way to go. If they die of blood-loss then that's their problem.