Frustration In Nursing

Frustration. That’s the first word that pops into me head every time I go to clinical. Day after day, being pushed out the way. It made me feel unworthy and stupid. Everybody is getting paired up nurses, while I—I just get to stay on the floor and do mediocre work. Yay. Why aren’t I getting paired with a nurse? Highest achieving student in my nursing class and everyone under the sun, except for me, gets to be with a nurse. I feel incredible anger when I think of why. Under these circumstances, I have been forced to take it out on myself. I keep interrogating my brain, racking my mind for possible causes of this injustice. I must not kid myself, I guess I’m more “book smart” than practical coordinated, but I still deserve a chance.
As a result, I started to doubt my abilities. I felt incompetent. I knew my information but, I was baffled as to why I was stuck with the nursing assistant. Time after time I proved my intellectual abilities to my instructor, but yet I was still on the sidelines. The other superior-nurse-having students always came up to me and ask me for my brain and knowledge. I'm always there to help, but I would
I haven’t found the exact cause why but I believe it’s because I haven't finished “cooking” yet. I still have practical work to do. Yes, it is true that I'm well equipped in the knowledge department, but obviously that’s not good. Upon further investigation, I figured out that my instructor believed my personality wasn't strong enough to support the rigor of being with a nurse. I wasn't going to act all out of whack and bolide rent, so instead I sat and spoke to her about it and she explained to me when she finds a nicer, more patient nurse she’ll put me with them. The situation improved because I figured out that it wasn't because I was incompetent it was because I was shy. I learned that I shouldn't be so hard on myself because I'm a high achieving nursing