You Decide!!
Prepared by: DeEtte Heaton
Prepared for Communication and Composition 1
University of Phoenix
Dr. Diane Hall
I want you to imagine yourself in a very different place, a different life if you will. Imagine a deep dark life driven by a sick unexplainable need. Every minute clouded by a sickness that you do not understand. This monster growing inside of you distorts every thought you have. Your decisions are no longer your own; they are this monster’s; this evil thing that eats away at your soul. Your life has spun out of control. You no longer even think to go see your children and your spouse. Your job has been long lost. Your body no longer feels like your own. You cannot bear to look in the mirror, because you no longer see your own reflection. That person is gone, lost inside you somewhere. You hate the monster that took your place, but you are too weak to fight it off anymore.
Now, I want you to imagine this same battered body lying on a cold steel bed. Every muscle hurts with withdrawal. Your mind is spinning with disbelief, regret, and fear. All you hear are angry voices yelling at each other or laughing at you, and the constant clang of steel doors is deafening. Tears are running down your face as you see your children’s faces flash in your mind. You begin to wither with the realization that they are going to spend the next twenty years without you. You will never see them graduate from high school, or even college. Will you be home in time to walk your oldest down the aisle as she marries? Will you see your new grandchildren beyond the glass of a visiting room? The agony of what you have done is too much, and still you do not quite comprehend where it all went wrong. Why is this happening? Did you murder someone? Did you rape a child? Did you rob a bank? There is an ongoing battle
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