Stuff Monologue

In this life I live, I was born with nothing to give. Not even a dime to give my mama for blessing me with a life. I had to teach myself by just watching. I had to go get it. If you don’t have anything, make it into some if there isn’t any. Hard times turn into good times. Harder times make you understand what these times are for. It only takes a minute for you to be right back where you were, or even worse. Play the cards and see what your hand gives you. Go by the book and do what is taught by your people. I was told to be bold and stand on what I believe because without you thinking for yourself, everyone would be the same. Being bold and taking the risk is what I do. What are the risks, you ask? I’m talking about the one that makes you
Stuff is going to happen. Stuff is going to get in your way. Stuff is always in my way and always has me in my feelings. I hide from the world because I don’t want anybody seeing me hurt. These mad faces are the faces that get me through the day because if I said what I wanted or did whatever I wanted to people I would probably be dead or I would be in jail by now. That’s why I’m glad to have my mom, my brothers and my girl. They are everything I care about. They are what I risk my freedom for. They are the reason I have my way of life, my space, and even the things I eat. I wasn’t always smart, well not as smart as others, and I accepted that early and gave up. So really when I say I DON’T KNOW HOW I GOT HERE, I don’t. But I did make it here and I’m about to be out of school in just a few weeks. I’m coming from struggling to read and write, but overcoming it by making it happen. I put in some time. Not all the time, but most of the time I try to do the right thing and stay in school. I listen to my mama and my teachers who tell me to keep my head on, stay on track and think before I react. Trust me, I came a long way through trouble and I am not trying to go back. I’m just trying to sit back and