wrong in my life and she didn’t, but not because she couldn’t. When I couldn’t get whatever I wanted I would lash out. I expected way too much from my mother. She wasn’t superhuman. There was thing s going on that were not her fault and she had no control over I still blamed her for it. The way I rationalized it was that if she loved me so much why I can’t have everything I want, or why am I hurting so much. She is supposed to take all the pain away and make everything okay no matter what the circumstances. I never stopped to conceive the fact that she was basically raising me and my brothers on her own on a small pay check and struggling everyday to make sure we were taken care of no matter what. She was barely making ends meet while seeing that we had everything we needed and then some. My mother did everything she had to do for us, and it was my selfish mindset that stopped me from seeing that. When I first heard the song I was riding in the car and it came on the radio. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I was stopped in tracks. The woman I had been disrespecting, and blaming for all of life’s problems was much more important to me than I had been making her out to be. My mother was more than a provider and an authority figure. She cared for me more than anything and anyone on Earth, and she would do anything for me. If she could spare me any amount of pain she would do it in a heartbeat. At that moment of hearing that song I regretted all the strife I caused her. When I felt pain it wasn’t her fault and if she could take away she would have. With that one powerful line …”she nearly gave her life to raise me right,” my whole life was changed and I wanted to be my mother’s protector. I think it made me a better child, sister, and friend. Each day I love my mother more and more, she is a strong woman and I am very thankful to have her. I look up to her and will never take here for granted again because some people are not as fortunate to have one.
The song “Keep Ya Head Up” addresses issues that are prevalent in low income communities, the main issue being the lack of respect for black women. I feel like the song was written just for me and my life. My mother and I are very close and that song has a lot to do with it. I am very proud of mother and I love her very much.