I would torture myself by staying up until two o’clock in the morning and look up college acceptance rates and what people’s GPAs and SAT scores that got into the colleges I was applying to with the same major. The constant self-doubt was exhausting me. I remember one night in particular when I was comparing myself to a girl that got accepted into UCLA with a 2.0 GPA. Truthfully, I was flabbergasted by her acceptance into this school because I believed that the students accepted into this school had 4.5 GPAs, is president of three clubs, and is on varsity for three sports. This showed me that I needed to work harder because not everyone gets that lucky in life. If I were to go back to that moment of self-doubt and anxiety, I think I would’ve wanted to talk to my parents about how I was feeling because most of this unneeded stress was coming from them saying things like, “You won’t get into college if you don’t have a 4.0 GPA, everyone has that” and, “Are you studying for the SAT? Your score was so low.” Of course, I loved that they were trying to encourage me with “tough love,” but I needed to figure out everything on my own considering I’m going to be independent for the first time in the near future. Their doubt in me getting into a “good school” affected me greatly because I began to get even more unsure, which distracted me from my studies, and led me to constantly think …show more content…
During the summer, I relaxed and outlined a plan for the next 10 years of my life which mainly consisted of going to school for my B.S. and M.S. in Nursing. I had decided what colleges I wanted to attend, what would happen next, and when I was going to take the next SAT so I can study harder for it. While I was planning, I began to feel more organized and ready for the future. Another thing that made me feel set with my plan for the future was my trip to the Philippines. When I visited that third world country, I saw great poverty and children on the streets begging for money in order to provide for their families. Immediately upon seeing children in that kind of situation, I had a realization of how fortunate I am to have the life I’ve been given, and made me think about how my career could help them. After I become an RN or Nurse Practitioner, I want to visit another third world country and help hospitals in administering care. I discovered that I don’t want to live my life in constant fear and self-doubt thinking about what I should’ve done better. This challenge has helped me grow as a person by showing me that I need to have confidence in myself and